If
someone asks me this question my spontaneous reply would be, “Me? Noway! I’m
not afraid of anything.” … But in actual there are lot of things which make me
back out of things I want to do, or want to go for. For instance been afraid to
say No to people I love. I can’t do that. How much I try, hoe stubborn I may
turn to be… at the end I just give up. There are times I have thought, “If only
I was a bit more rebel in some situations, I would have moved on with saying a
No.” But sometimes saying that two letter words requires so much of courage and
strong hearted, which I certainly lack. Maybe as I age up, might gain this too.
Fingers crossed!
I am
afraid to face certain demons of my life. Which if once faced courageously,
would leave me forever. I know that very well, but the fear factor is so high
that I ignore the good side of getting those demons out of life. I haven’t yet
reached that part of life, where I could say at certain situations, “Let
anything happen, I don’t care.”
When
these two phobias of mine leaves me, or when I grow up to achieve these
qualities life would be much more easier. But life doesn't come with a manual
or an instructional video. We are bound to find the best ways to make life
happen for us. And I believe, all these are part of that. And I’m still trying
to find out the best way to tackle life. And once I do that, I’ll be kicking
all these fears of mine goodbye forever.
Most of us have that 'No' difficulty, Sheethal. But we need to learn to say No at times, don't we? And yes, 'the come what may' attitude is also not easy to get. I hope our outgrow your fears soon :)
ReplyDeleteYou're not alone in these fears, Sheethal. I'm better at saying no than I used to be but I still fear confrontation with people and often go along with things even if I don't want to do them for fear of annoying or hurting a person's feelings.
ReplyDeleteAs you say, life doesn't come with an instruction manual and we do the best we can.
I think you wrote what we all feel...We are so scared to face our fears..something or the other holds us back..If only we found the strength to allay those fears no?
ReplyDeleteSaying No is a tough one. I myself at times find trouble saying no. There's this unknown guilt that arises everytime I say no. Hope you will soon be able to fight these demons.
ReplyDeleteConfronting people and learning to say 'no'' was very difficult but I have conquered most of my demons and doing this Sheethal gives a good feeling. The fears in our minds have to be released.
ReplyDeleteAnd we are, Susan. We all are, so you aren't alone!
ReplyDeleteI had trouble saying NO too. Now I have mastered that art. :D
ReplyDeleteMost of us can't say no to our near and dear ones, hurting them is a real fear. Great post...
ReplyDeleteThis NO difficult plagues me to no end. We all have our SCARE where we are tempted to back out and unwilling to go through tough times to achieve our dreams.
ReplyDeleteI am slowly becoming an expert at saying no. Now I think that I am too old to be doing things I have no interest in.
ReplyDeleteKnowing yourself and addressing your weaknesses is the first big step forward!
ReplyDeleteWhen you finally do learn to say NO, teach me too. And those demons, something deep inside tells me that you're gonna kick their butts soon enough ;)
ReplyDeleteWhat a heartfelt post! I hope you overcome your fears soon. Fingers crossed for you! :)
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