Ex-Best-Friends!

Today morning I woke up to the sound of a message knocking in my phone. It was a FB message from my Best Friend Ex-Best-Friend, inviting me to her marriage which is fixed to happen this month.

Years before when we, 3 friends,  completed our 12th, stood stubborn that if we are gonna join for a professional course then it will be in the same college. We didn't want to part our ways then. I who wanted to pursue literature but who lacked strong arguments to convince parents halfheartedly accepted to join for the professional course only coz of my two friends. What if I couldn't get my dream subject, at least can be with my friends... that was my thought.

Everyone who saw our bond was literally jealous and we are over confident about our relation. But this didn't last long. Misunderstandings and ego was stronger than our love. And we just went different ways. Been in the same college we just ignored each others presence. Years passed that ignorance reduced and once BFFs turned to acquaintances.

We used to to plan each other's wedding, how the guy should be, what to wear on the day... blah blah blah. We even thought of marrying from the same family so we could be sister in laws to each other. But now...??

We are just not in each others life. But are past of each one. We broke up not coz of anyone's fault, but coz of pure misunderstandings. And we were ego blinded to say sorry... coz no one did anything and waited for the other one to come forward.

After this dishum dishum of ours I met a person who made me realize that I can be as adamant as a King and as humble as a beggar. And today I do say Sorry to others even when I believe I am right. I understood that a relation is much more valuable than any ego.

Wish... I knew it before. Then, maybe today I would be writing about my best friend's marriage preparations and not this!

In life, it's given that we lose people. People will flow in and out like breeze through an open window, sometimes for reasons and sometimes for no reasons at all. We met as total strangers and ended as lifetime friends, we shared a season of our lives, but every season has to end!

Once upon a time...

We were a gang of six girls in college. In that I was pretty close to one. We were together in hostel for some months, and then she was staying at my house, and even when she moved out, our daily trips to college was also together. So we were really close and could say I did tell everything to her. But after 3years I called off that divine friendship coz I couldn’t tolerate some of her acts. She did almost everything to get back, but I was so damn adamant. I just couldn’t accept anything. Even her tears couldn’t melt my heart. You know, I am a cold hearted person if I want.  And for almost one year I didn’t even look at her face inspite of being in the same class. I would just ignore her as if she didn’t even exist. And after that I did start talking to her, just formal talks, as if she was just an acquaintance. Even now she tries to bring back our relation as it was in the past. Maybe she didn't meant to hurt me and I know we all make mistakes. But still I don’t regret for the way I acted then. But if I was in her position, I won’t be this humble and apologizing even if it’s my fault. I wish, I could get that virtue of hers.

Today is her birthday. And I remembered only when I saw the FB notification. And there was a time when I took days to plan her surprise birthday party and when I religiously called her at 12 am sharp to wish her and today it was just single line in FB. Guess, this is the pattern of life. You have soo much of people in your life and coz of certain reasons, distance, misunderstandings you drift apart from each other. You just lose each one or the other. Today this person will be the most important one for you, and tomorrow someone else will be in their place. Nothing seems to be permanent and no one seems to have a permanent position or priority in each other’s life.

Life just moves on like a train ride. We get on. We ride. We get off. There are soo many who board the train and who eventually become very important to us. Some people on the train will leave an everlasting impression when they get off. Some will get on and get off the train so quickly, they will scarcely leave a sign they ever travelled along with you or ever crossed your path. We will sometimes be upset that some passengers, whom we love, will choose to sit in another compartment and leave us to travel on our own.

Happy birthday to her and thank you for being a co-passenger in my journey!

 

P.S. Wish I could forgive and also forget.

God Blez.