A Date With Her

Woke up to her messages. 

Took the phone to the loo and chatted with her. She was all packed to take that flight away from life, at least for a while. And I am still here, questioning myself about the trip booked two days ago under alcohol influence. But the next morning everything looked so fine. Both of had enough leaves and finance also could be managed even thou wound be under tight reigns. 

We were planning this trip for years now, our sort of "Date". When career took us to two different countries across the globe from each other, the only console where planning these imaginary trips. Now it's going to be a reality. Or should I cancel the whole thing and apologize to her? No. It's too late now and she already left for the airport. 

After debating with myself for what seemed like hours, by evening I left to the airport. We were supposed to mid-way. She said she'll wait at some bookshop in the airport terminal. 

When the flight touched the ground I woke up with a jerk. Yesterday couldn't sleep a wink out of excitement, fear, and my own doubts. 

There she was with a huge bag over her shoulders browsing through the bookshelves, with earphones plugged into her iPod.

That’s how we met. Through music. Debating about my favorite song which she hated for reasons not acceptable for me and over which still we fight a lot.

It's been ages since we met.

My best friend who I haven't seen for the past 5 years. 

I’m participating in the Write Tribe Problogger October 2017 Blogging Challenge through October. #WriteBravely

Today’s Prompt – “Put your music player on shuffle or turn the radio to your fav. station. Write the post today using the song as your prompt.”

Adding this to #FridayReflections too

Been together ...

“ The only person worthy of your love is not one who overstayed in the relationship without a single change, but one, who appeared like an angel, and used a single day to make a million change. ” 
― Michael Bassey Johnson

We humans cannot survive alone. We are social beings who need constant buzzing of other humans around us. We need our friends or family for consolation in grief, for support in distress, for expressing ourselves and for just been there. I am not a person who got  much of the self expressing gene in me. I prefer to grieve alone or to sort out my problems by myself. But on some days of life, we just need the assurance that someone is actually there for us. Someone is looking after us. And that’s when friends and family comes in picture.

Student life for us is a total carefree life. Nothing can wrong for us then. Life looks so possible and full of hopes. And it was no different for me and my friends too. But one morning I woke up to an inbox full of messages and lots of missed calls saying that one of my best friends met with an accident and didn’t survive it. He was living in another city and was just back home for a week. It was only the previous day I spend time with him and the next day I woke up to hear his demise. That was one moment when even tears failed to acknowledge their presence. The moment when you feel so awake yet felt dreaming. That day itself his family arranged for his final rituals, and I have never seen something like that before. Losing a person is sad, but when that person is very young, it’s just terrible.

The next day, I left for class, even when I didn’t had the energy or mind. But been at home and engulfing in grief was more than I could handle. So escaping into the cheerfulness of campus was the only way. I went early that day, because I needed that time to compose myself before my gang came and start consoling me. But when I reached, saw the least expected person. He was one person who never reached class before the lecture starts. And here he was now, an hour before the college time. He was sitting at his usual place as if waiting for me, to assure me of his friendship and companionship. That moment I realized, I may have lost one friend to the past, but there are still some more beautiful friends around me to ensure my happiness and smiles.  And for a long time, wherever I went he was somewhere around the scene, maybe to make sure I was fine.  Also should add, that was the only day he reached class before me in all the four years of our college life. 

We both have our differences and fights, and we still show our attitude to each other for days. We are miles away and it’s been almost two years since we last saw each other. But it’s just a matter of a message or a miss call, and there ends our ego and we both know that no matter what, we are there for each other.  When there are friends and dear ones with us to hold our hands, or just to stand beside us during our not so good days, that itself gives us enough confidence to move on. And that’s the fragrance of friendship and strength of togetherness.

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Linking this to Housing.com

Unsend Letter - To Best friend...

Dear Best Friend aka Favorite Cousin,

Howdy? :D … You still have not whatsapped me your gown pic. Yea, know it has been send for alternation, but still the curiosity is bubbling like anything. We have been cousins from birth, but it took 15 years for us to know each other well and become friends best friends. And after that there was no looking back.

I seriously don’t know what to write to you, except for the same thing I have told/written to you many times. You are someone I could never replace for anything in life. You have known me right from my teenage day’s tantrums to my dovey love phase to the so-called adult stage. And should say, you are the only one I didn’t mind sharing my room with.  You are one who could take no nonsense from me when say I’m fine when I actually am in a very crappy mood. We have always as every sisters planned this and that and everything that has to done together for our weddings. Now when you are in real going to get married in less than a week, I couldn’t even toast that drink for you. Missed going for elaborate wedding shopping’s, gossip sections, freaking out moments, should-I-do-this days to everything. And I hate myself for having to miss your D-day and see how gorgeous and happy you look. Sorry for that! Sometimes circumstances and situations don’t come our way. People like you are the best gift a person could ask for in a lifetime. Someone who we are so sure to be there for anything and nothing. Someone to whom we could be so blunt with and who no matter what won’t leave your side.

Wherever you go, I’ll be always there to bug you with my, “Are you happy?” or “Idiot, I miss roaming out with you.” phrases. And you better stay so happy in life, because I can’t stand a sad You.

I miss spending time with you, especially now.

Love you tons and loads.

~S.

- A Letter A Week, hosted by Nibha -

Hey Baby...

How can a little baby who’s so tiny, that we actually hesitate even to touch him, wondering whether it would hurt him or make him uncomfortable, can be the center of everyone’s life all of a sudden?

Yesterday, I and a friend went to see another friend of us. And when we entered her room, next to her was lying a small bundle with just a tiny handsome rosy face peeping out. His face just made the time stand still and feel as if the world is so beautiful and made me think why we never thought before, that this little guy would be part of our gang sooner or later. Whenever we visit her, we used to buy her flowers and chocolates, that been her favorite, but yesterday we were thinking what are we going to get for the baby love.

I meet her the day I stepped inside my boarding school. Parents  been at the same country, added to our advantage and then and there started our friendship. Now after 15 years, I’m aunt to her baby boy. Awe… Life! Before I looked forward to meet her, but now I can’t wait to see the baby again.

Definitely children add so much beauty to our relations and to this very world. 

What you say?

My favourite Friend.

Seventh and the last day of Festival of Words. It was truly a festival with lots and lots of words, stories, personal experiences, excitement and happiness.

Glad I took part in this and get to meet so many more bloggers. Thanks to Corinne and to all the brains and imagination behind this.

Today for my last post of this series I am taking inspiration from Richa's theme, "Seven things about the first person I get to see each morning". If you haven't yet been to her space.... just rush! :)

But here it's not the first person I saw today, but about a person who influenced me years before and still doing.

Midhun aka MRM aka M.

1. A 6 feet (somewhere near) macho man. An athlete. You can't just ignore his presence. If he's somewhere near, then he'll definitely hit your eyes.

2. A person with immense love for his family and friends and who don't hesitate in showing that. He made sure everyone knew that family and friends are his first priority. And he's extremely possessive about them.

3. No permanent rivalry with anyone. He would be your enemy this moment, but if you are in need, he will be the first person to give his hand.

4. He's the one person who taught me to find happiness in small things. If one feels happy only when something great happens, then he'll have to wait long for that, but when one finds happiness in small small things, then he'll be always happy. 

5. A lover of branded stuffs, right from sunglasses to cars. And he's always impeccably dressed and should say he got great sense in choosing his and others (which includes women too) attire.

6. He's a females person. Chic magnet!!! (as Richa describes one of her friend). He's just too good with words and the way he talks. And the best part is no girls will feel offended talking to him. He got great Respect for women.

7. We used to fight a lot through phone as we were seas apart. As am a very stubborn female,  it doesn't take much time for his patience level to reach the peak point. And if you thought he will blast out, never! He, in his most sweet, calm, ever loving tone will say "Bye... take care... talk to you tomorrow"... and just disconnects the call. Grrrrr... that's the way he expresses his anger. 

Thank God for that. Or else we would have killed each other a zillion times by now.

He's not perfect. But I call him the 'Imperfectly Perfect Man'.

He left this world Four years ago. But the strength with much he is remembered by all of us, even now just surprises me. I have seen many people near and far pass away, but this is one is still living more strongly each day through his dear ones. It's like his friends and family near lets anyone forget that he was here among us and still is...

Recently I talked to a mutual friend of ours. He said he still couldn't accept the fact that M was gone. Even thou it's years since he's gone, the vaccum he left is still the same. Guess that was the power of the life he led and his love for others.

We all think about life after death at one point or the other. But, I wish to live in the hearts of my dear ones like he lives now and forever.

This is my Seventh post to Write Tribe Festival of Words.

Ex-Best-Friends!

Today morning I woke up to the sound of a message knocking in my phone. It was a FB message from my Best Friend Ex-Best-Friend, inviting me to her marriage which is fixed to happen this month.

Years before when we, 3 friends,  completed our 12th, stood stubborn that if we are gonna join for a professional course then it will be in the same college. We didn't want to part our ways then. I who wanted to pursue literature but who lacked strong arguments to convince parents halfheartedly accepted to join for the professional course only coz of my two friends. What if I couldn't get my dream subject, at least can be with my friends... that was my thought.

Everyone who saw our bond was literally jealous and we are over confident about our relation. But this didn't last long. Misunderstandings and ego was stronger than our love. And we just went different ways. Been in the same college we just ignored each others presence. Years passed that ignorance reduced and once BFFs turned to acquaintances.

We used to to plan each other's wedding, how the guy should be, what to wear on the day... blah blah blah. We even thought of marrying from the same family so we could be sister in laws to each other. But now...??

We are just not in each others life. But are past of each one. We broke up not coz of anyone's fault, but coz of pure misunderstandings. And we were ego blinded to say sorry... coz no one did anything and waited for the other one to come forward.

After this dishum dishum of ours I met a person who made me realize that I can be as adamant as a King and as humble as a beggar. And today I do say Sorry to others even when I believe I am right. I understood that a relation is much more valuable than any ego.

Wish... I knew it before. Then, maybe today I would be writing about my best friend's marriage preparations and not this!

In life, it's given that we lose people. People will flow in and out like breeze through an open window, sometimes for reasons and sometimes for no reasons at all. We met as total strangers and ended as lifetime friends, we shared a season of our lives, but every season has to end!

Friends!

"When with you, I feel like doing all the crazy things." - Statement of a friend when I questioned about his desire to snow mountain climb with me.

Guess, that mere statement defines Friendship. The freedom to able to do all the crazy things and the belief that the other one could accompany you even if its the most insane idea.  Friendship are those moments of blissfulness you feel when with each other. The moments you wanna store for a lifetime. We are in our true weird self when with an equally weird bunch. So in a way our friends define us. At those times, we just don't care about anything or anyone, our profession, age or even where in the world we are. We are just ourselves.

Cheers to all those beautiful souls in my life, who brings out the insanity in me. :)

S for ... ...

Third week of the A to Z April 2013 Challenge! And today is S day

She.

She first met me as a little girl. She saw me grow up into a woman. Saw the childish stubbornness in me. Have seen me in smiles, tears, stress, insecure, love and fear. Who knows me in n out. She have seen me in it's original version... without any makeup, without any masks. The rawness in me and the polished self too. Have read my soul. Saw the genuine emotions in me at it's extreme and purest form available. Laughed along with me and shared my happiness with a smile on her eyes. Lifted me up when I was sinking. Held me tight in her arms when I needed a comfort. Protected me under her wings until I wad ready to face the world. Stood by my side viewing all my crankiness and craziness without criticizing or judging and understanding that I needed all those. Provided me darkness and space to invade deep into darkness and pushed me into sunlight when I searched for a glow.

If she was a living soul, she would have been like another soul who shared my body. Would have been my best friend. Would have been more precious to me than anyone else. 

She's the safest place in this earth for me. Where I could be myself.

P.S. She's, My Room :D

God Blez.

M for ... ...

M day of the Challenge!

Today it's "Memories".

College for me was supposed to be KJo’s sets. The same masti, romance and studio classrooms like in SRK movies. But first day in college made me realize KJo is a film maker and SRK is an actor and there college is a set and here it’s real life, and not a romantic lyceum. College was nothing less than school, esp. in professional colleges, added with a bit more of freedom and tons of syllabuses and more amount of stress which we choose to neglect.

“Engineering is just not a course but a life divided into eight, named as semesters.” – Semester 8(Short film)

I too agree with this. In those 4 years we happen to come across almost every problem, solutions, and emotions. Happy, sad, surprise, astonishment, anger, friendship, lust, love, trust, hope, jealousy, stress, excitement, disgust, anticipation, fear, pride, courage, respect, confusion… you name it, you have felt it in those years.

Here every soul under a roof was a family. Problem of one is a common problem. Everyone was just a call away, despite at any hour of the day or night. Visibly and invisibly someone will be there at your side. When starting the first semester, the eighth one seemed so far away. Four years, sounded like a long drag. But it went like a whirlwind.

When stepping into the college premises for the first time my initial thought was, “How I’m gonna survive in this place?”

But…

The unfamiliarity during first few days. The addition of a bunch of people that matches your stupidity and insanity to your friends list. Ragged by seniors and ragging the juniors. Roll numbers. Attendance. The rush to reach the class before the first bell. The sleepy seven hours of lectures. Waking up at insane hours just to talk or wake up each other. The fun seeking gene in you who gets out of control when with friends. The irresistible hunger when near to cafeteria. The carving for canteen biryani’s on Fridays. A single coffee shared among 2-3. Girls/Boys moments. The triples ride. The not so secret crush on lecturers. The home works and assignments copied as if running a marathon. Movies. Treats. Surprise tests and close book assignments postponed or changed to open assignments. Last crush & first serious love. Half day leaves. Never ending records. Forward messages. Sardar jokes. Mass bunking. Group suspension. Weekend fever. Monday blues. Conference calls. Library dues. Lab hours which turned out to be fun hours. Gossips about the break-up & patch up of couples. The hastiness in uploading photos in FB. The sneaky chits during lectures. The impatience for tour days. Getting a best friend. The combine study series where everything except studies takes place. Exam stress.  Early mornings in college on exam days. Results. Holidays. Surprise birthday celebrations. Marriages of friend’s siblings where we dominate the guest list. The preps for college fests. Basketball tournaments and cheers voiced across the court. Nail biting seminar days. Sleepless project preps. First job. Countless bundles of photostats. Fights and make ups. Falling in and out of love. The walk to the gate along with the whole gang after college hours. The silent tears during last days. Autographs. Farewell. Reunion. Phone calls. FB chats. Once in a blue moon meet ups. It goes on… Like thousand picture perfect moments.

Life goes on. Likewise, some bonds are never broken. They may seem to lose their strength as years pass, but till the end a thread will remain to keep both the ends hooked.

“I've learned one thing, and that's to quit worrying about stupid things. You have four years to be irresponsible here, relax. Work is for people with jobs. You'll never remember class time, but you'll remember the time you wasted hanging out with your friends. So stay out late. Go out with your friends on a Tuesday when you have a paper due on Wednesday. Spend money you don't have. Drink 'til sunrise. The work never ends, but college does...” ― Tom Petty

P.S. Stay happy!

God Blez.

Friend!

 

A friend is a person with whom you dare to be yourself – Anonymous

 

 

Yea, a friend is someone with whom we are our true self. With whom you let down all your guards. With whom you never have to worry how you look, how your clothes, make-up or hair or nails is. You just have to be yourself. You can say whatever that comes in your mind without even thinking once. He does not want to you be better or worse. He just wants you to be genuinely you. He’s the kind of person you can tell anything to, no matter how bad, how obscene or how inane, they'll still love you, because they know you. You can bitch him, shout at him, fight with him, make him angry, irritate him but at the end of the day you are there for each other. He will do everything to wreck your nerves, but will never let anyone else hurt you. A friend is always a blessing.

Treasure all those who knows your naked soul.

“Two a.m.' He swallowed, then said, "You know. The person you can call at two a.m. and, no matter what, you can count on them. Even if they're asleep or it's cold or you need to be bailed out of jail...they'll come for you. It's like, the highest level of friendship.” ― Sarah Dessen

 

P.S. God Blez all friends.


 

Happy Post! :)

No new ideas! No new incidents! No new emotions! No new stories! Nothing! Then why not make the people in your life the subject of a blog post? Why not scribble about them?

One thing that always surprises me and makes me happy is the people I have in my life. Surprised coz, does everyone get such people in life, who you know is there no matter how u screws up? Happy coz I have them and they are mine. :)

ATJ - My older GF. Love her serenity, sanity n insanity, blabbering and her love of life. Senior in school and boarding mate. I was so crazy about her then and even now, thou the childhood craziness do not exist I simply love her for the person she is.

JMJ - 17 years. That’s what we have shared. Initial three years, it was just familiarity. Then it was friends through thick n thin. She’s one sanest, craziest, spontaneous and smart female. We share the same ideologies, the certain level of feminism and love for each other. Our friendship started with lays and books. The first girl friend with whom I talked about boys, crushes, dates, love, career, marriage, dreams and life itself. And now even thou we are unmarried and childless, we talk about getting our kids married to each other or letting them be best friends We lead our life in different paths in different places, but still, when we meet nothing changes.  We are still the same old girls. Soul sister, Love u!

JAJ – A devilish beauty with an angelic face. :D She has the most innocent faces I have ever seen. Whatever stupidity she does in class, the blame automatically rests upon our shoulders. Coz no one believes she could say/do anything out of the box. Stubborn like a mule. The female warrior (Unni Aarcha) of the whole batch. Doesn’t mind picking up a fight even with the professors to make her version clear. But she’s a lovable, caring and a practical female. Bold enough to live with her likes and principles.

K & N: They are the recently added sibilings in my life. Big B and lil sister. This defines them. K tolerates mine & N’s stubbornness, inflexibility, rareness and similarities. No probz, he is supposed to! :P We knew each other for years, but never talked, never even looked at each other’s way. But all of sudden there they are!

LPN – “Where ever u go, ‘m there.”

That’s our tagline and that’s what defines us. Right now we are planning to elope together, after making a good amount of money. :D . Someone who seems to understand what ‘m saying, even when I just blabber out the word. Someone who thinks with heart, crazy about foot wears and watches, who doesn't likes chocolates, lovable, a bit scary with those look she gives. But whatever u does, she’ll never back out. Will be there for u in spite of the weather around.

MK – Talkative, sensitive, bold, smart, lovable. A complete F.O.O.D.I.E. 24x7 hungry. She’s one person who doesn’t tolerate me when I freak out my duties of a friend. Who has her own principles and ideologies and criticizes and scolds me when I do craps. A fun person who’s ultimate aim is to live happily and make others happy too. She’s like a like a lil sister who I treat as a bro!

N & N – Love these girls. But lost the intimacy of once high friendship during the course of life. Blame it on ego, arrogance and misunderstandings. But when realized, it was too late to be back in square one.

SAJ - I am his first female friend (big grins). And m his secret keeper and he only opens up his bottled mind in front of me, actually he says so. One hell of an adamant and confident guy. One person to whom I can turn to in the case of advices whether in studies, love, relations, guys, money or profession. And he never fails to be in touch with me even if I do so.

SS - Another one from small age. But we were never friends, then. Or I didn’t consider him as one. I actually couldn’t stand this guy coz of his intensity of irritating me. My fighting friend. And he even made a disappearance from my premises and never showed up for years. Then suddenly, there he is, with his same old insanity. But now he’s a friend with whom I have shared my childhood and who I can count up on anything on anytime of the day/night. But we still fight a hell lot, and he's still irritating to the core. :D

RR – The lady with brown eyes. A sleepless night creature who wakes up even from deep coma when a Hide& seek biscuit wrapper is opened. A female who looks so fragile with an unbelievable temper. She always strives to do her best and win the race of life. My partner in planning crimes.

VSV – Human being who made me create a priority list. My BBF, who never wishes me on time for my birthday unless I threaten him or start pleading before a fortnight. Who irritates me like there’s no tomorrow. Person who precisely wakes me up in insane hours during exam seasons. Makes me say sorry for the stupid things he provokes me to say. Makes a habit to be somewhere near the scene when ‘m involved. Was there visibly and invisibly whenever I needed him. Demands birthday gifts from each other which have to be unique. I miss having u around esp. when I need to throw a tantrum at someone, and when something good/bad happens.

How much I complain to God, this is one thing I’ll always be grateful and happy. Coz these souls are not my relation by blood and I never choose them, they all came to my life unexpectedly at different times to show me life is definitely beautiful and no matter what, God will never make u feel lonely. All these people hold their own space, their own importance in my life. And I believe no one can replace one another. Each person is unique in his/her own ways.

A toast to you people.

No matter how much you grow, some people can still bring out the child in you. Love you all coz of who are you deep down in heart, and coz you guys tolerate me as I am.

                     

                                                     

P.S. :)



God Blez.