Thursday, February 9, 2012

Frustrated with Life.


The always most cruel reality of life.  

Men are so damn powerful…but in the case of death everyone is helpless. When God of destruction/death comes between us and takes our dear ones, we can't do anything... one situatn where we're soo freaking helpless that we just have to stand there looking at him taking them away from us…. FOREVER.  (One place where forever means forever itself.)

I always visualized God to be so beautiful,kind and warm. But he was nevh kind in taking lives... that to those lives which dosnt even strtd living. Now I think God f death as Hinduism portraits is with horns, cruel, cold and doesn’t even know what sympathy means.

God have already decided our fate, our days… and how does pray can alter that?? He doesn't mean to change it. I know prayer is make us strong enough to face his decisions… but doesn't we have any right to atleast have our people for a minimum time. They were given to us as our own… then why should he take them back before they lived their life?  I knw he owns us…he's THE creator and  THE destroyer … but don't the creator care for our happiness??

For me it seems like… I have them this moment… God takes them back the next second. 'm feeling so jinxed, so unlucky and soo damn depressed.

1 hour before he was on the way to see me and now 'm hearing he’s no more.

Yesterday I talked to my brother and today I attended his funeral. 

What the hell is this?

How do God think one should have the strength and the heart that doesn't loose in all this? Above all pressures from all the sides regarding various issues. I always see myself as a strong person and I put up a smiling face even when 'm drowning. But that helped me to hold on. But now, in and out 'm BROKEN.

U shattered half of my world… but that shattered piece still existed… but now with he too gone… nothing more exists.

What m I left with ??? 

Tuesday, February 7, 2012

BFF !!! Happy Birthday.


Happieee happiee birthday to u. May U have all the happiness in the world. God bless you tremendously. :)

I know i have been rude, arrogant and stubborn to u for past few days but as its your birthday i wanna be extra nice to you. So today No fights. No SRM. I promise. :)

Never thought we'll be friends and would last this long. Kiddos to Us!!! Someone almost different from me. But we do share the same wavelength to some extent. Years in college with you was really worthy. Worthy enough to treasure you always. So don't worry i'll be always around as your Peace hacker. Promise. Without my fingers crossed. ;))

Be the same. Having our word wars, cold wars and chottu mottu fights makes our bonding more strong. I know your value soo much and priorities will be incomplete if its not for you. But as always i'l be stubborn. :P and i know u'l tolerate me...beacuse u'r suppose to. :D. I won't stop teasing you EVER. And you can expect me doing the same even in-front of ur future wifey and kidds. :D

Hope you liked the gift.

Happy Birthday.
Always be Happy and Keep smiling.


( I just wished u and kept the phone. Miss u Yaaar. )