One
thing I enjoy most is writing, even when I am not too good in that and also
reading. But the so called writers/readers block has once again caught me tight
around the neck, nearly choking me and making it impossible to breathe. Is this
actually the so called writer’s block or the uneasiness life gives you and you
tend to shift that to things you love? I can’t say, I lack topics to write or
books to read. But I lack the energy to think, type and make it into a post or
pick a book, sit down and actually read it. If only there was a technique to
transfer all those thoughts that’s whirling in your mind to organized words…
awe… that’s too much to ask for... I know. But one can surely wish, na?
Today
morning the news that greeted me was the death of the renowned Hollywood actor
Robin Williams. Jumanji was one of the earliest movies I remember watching and
recommending to many of my friends. He made others laugh with his movies but he
himself was a victim of depression. How ironic! Is life always like this, that
it’s not the truth that we see with our eyes but deep down there’s so much of
hidden truths waiting for us to ponder down? Who could have guessed he was
suffering from depression and one day it would kill him, but the truth it did.
Why
are we so conscious about displaying our fears and sorrows? Is it because
that’s how the world wants to see us, just the happy smiling faces? Is it
because the sadness can make the world cringe their noses that we tend to mask
it with a smile? No, I am not questioning anyone. This is just a query to self.
No matter what, it is so hard for me to admit that I’m upset/sad, even with
people who are non judgmental. Am I trying to be otherwise now? Nope. I did
give it a try once or twice but it just made me bitter. So I decided to leave
it as such.
Before
you seek the light all around you, seek that sunshine within you. That will
make you feel warm, loved and so special. And every day of your life can be a
miracle. A very beautiful miracle.
P.S.
Sorry for been so disoriented. Thought of writing something else, but ended up with
this. Do bare with me, please.
So glad to see you write again. You write so well. Please don't let the 'block' actually block you. Jumanji is one of my favorite movies too. It's indeed ironical that a person who made the whole world laugh was battling with depression :( I hope he is in a better place now.
ReplyDeleteThank you so much Aathira. Hope I could actually kick this block in its gear. :)
DeleteAnd yeah... he'll be definitely in a good place... as he made many of us smile...
This is really a nice write up and we fully agree with the views of the author. Keep it up.
ReplyDeleteYour cents are worth a much of $$$$ Sheethal
ReplyDeleteKeep it coming :)
Thanks for the words Ruchira :)
DeleteSo very heartbroken about Robin Williams. What a sad thing. :(
ReplyDeleteTrue....
DeleteYes it isn't easy for many people to reveal to others their sadness, depression and deeper fears. But perhaps we don't need to reveal all of that to everyone, to the whole world out there. What we need are a few, maybe just one or two people who are really close to us, whom we can trust completely, who understand us fully...they are the ones who can bring us out of our fears, sorrows and anxieties simply by being who they are and in our lives. Just something that popped up in my head as I read your freewrite. And yes I also share some of what you say in the beginning about lacking the energy to write :)
ReplyDeleteYes, completely agree with you. We had atleast one person with whom we can be ourselves without worrying about been judged or looked down.
DeleteYou are making great progress, Just keep an open mind while writing. Even 15 words can make a post.
ReplyDeleteI too hope Robin is in a better place now.
Keep writing
I hope I could write often too... thanks Indrepreet :)
DeleteI know what you mean...You know I find it hard to express myself or what I feel or I actually feel people don't understand me and then it upsets me...And I really loved this free write...Keep going :)
ReplyDeleteRandom Thoughts Naba - Sleeping Quirks...
Thanks Naba :)
DeleteI'm glad you did this free write! It is very freeing, isn't it, to pen your thoughts down without worrying about form etc!
ReplyDeleteMe too.... :)
DeleteThat's exactly what you mean by free write, right? To be disoriented? :) I loved your line of thoughts!
ReplyDeleteHope so! And thank you :)
DeleteWrite baby write. You are good at it. And yes we should always know our inner sunshine :)
ReplyDeleteThanks Red! :)
DeleteThis is good ! believe me .. The only movie i watched of him was Dead Poet Society !
ReplyDeleteThank you so much Ankur. :)
DeleteAhh don't be sorry, this is your blog, you can be disoriented, crazy or sensible as you please :)
ReplyDeletethe demise of Robin Williams was indeed tragic. I watched Jumanji again that day.
I came back to my blog yesterday after like 2 months. I was away once for nearly 8 months. I think it is better to write less but good stuff than to write more but not-enjoyable stuff. If you can't enjoy it, or have to make yourself write things, then it is better to do something else.
ReplyDeleteThe one thing about Robin's death that makes me happy is that mental health issues are now a more mainstream topic.