If
someone asks me this question my spontaneous reply would be, “Me? Noway! I’m
not afraid of anything.” … But in actual there are lot of things which make me
back out of things I want to do, or want to go for. For instance been afraid to
say No to people I love. I can’t do that. How much I try, hoe stubborn I may
turn to be… at the end I just give up. There are times I have thought, “If only
I was a bit more rebel in some situations, I would have moved on with saying a
No.” But sometimes saying that two letter words requires so much of courage and
strong hearted, which I certainly lack. Maybe as I age up, might gain this too.
Fingers crossed!
I am
afraid to face certain demons of my life. Which if once faced courageously,
would leave me forever. I know that very well, but the fear factor is so high
that I ignore the good side of getting those demons out of life. I haven’t yet
reached that part of life, where I could say at certain situations, “Let
anything happen, I don’t care.”
When
these two phobias of mine leaves me, or when I grow up to achieve these
qualities life would be much more easier. But life doesn't come with a manual
or an instructional video. We are bound to find the best ways to make life
happen for us. And I believe, all these are part of that. And I’m still trying
to find out the best way to tackle life. And once I do that, I’ll be kicking
all these fears of mine goodbye forever.
