Tuesday, September 3, 2013

Change myself?

As a person I love myself so much. Like Kareena Kapoor says in Jab We Met, "My favourite is me itself".

But no human being is perfect. And I accept that wholeheartedly. I believe that no one is white or black but is a shade of gray. Even when I prefer myself over anyone else there are certain things I wish to change in me.

1. Be more assertive: Telling No to a person is a big heartache for me. If it's a stranger 'm ok, but not to a dear one.

2. To able to play along the middle: I am one extreme individual. Nothings in the middle for me. Either this end or the other. If I love a person then I would give anything or everything and if I hate then there's no one with more worse attitude than me. Actually hate is a pretty strong word. I won't hate, I would just ignore him/her from my life for long.

3. Mood swings: I have one of the worst mood swings you have and will ever see.One second I'll be happy go lucky girl, the next I'll be that rotten cranky female. Once a friend commented that a chameleon is much better than me, coz we can predict the color it will adapt according to it's surrounding but I am not even that predictable.  ;)

4. Stubbornness: I usually don't budge from my opinions and decisions. And at times that hurts people.

5. Visualise the future: I am never bothered about my tomorrows. I live the moment. If someone asks me about my plans for the next day, my reply would be, "let's see if tomorrow comes". Don't take me as a pessimist, I am tagged as the biggest optimist ever by my peers.

6. Extrovert in expressing myself: I am an introvert when it comes to express my feelings or problems. I share my happiness with others but my dark moments are for myself.

7. To able to cry: To cry without any inhibitions or unconcerned about the people around me is my biggest dream. Except for my immediate family only one or two friends have seen, no heard me crying through phone.

So that was my "I wish I could change..." behaviours of mine. What's yours, if any?




This is my third post written for the Write Tribe Festival of Words.


20 comments :

  1. Hey another beautiful scribbling can relate to so many my pointers here. Being a Leo am very straightforward & speak my mind. But usually people took it as a rude attitude. Can telling a truth is sin?? But sometime I feel I should change a bit and rather turn into a hypocrite…..

    http://sailorswiferamblings.blogspot.com/2013/09/seven-smells-to-smile.html

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    1. I would say stick to your straight forwardness. People who knows you will love and rest you don't need them.

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  2. If I start writing on changing myself, it would exceed seven. :)
    But cry anywhere that I can :D

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    1. These seven are just the best ones from my list.
      Cry.... something far fetched for me.

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  3. That's a nice list of things you wanna improve on. I wanna get rid of my anger for a bit at least. I've been losing my clam so often these days :)

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    1. Stress takes away your calmness. Stay stress free. :)

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  4. I find that we are a lot a like!! Except for the crying part. Unusually by the time tears are leaking from my eyes I am past the point of caring what others think.

    Kathy
    http://gigglingtruckerswife.blogspot.com

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    1. Happy to have a alike soul.
      I am so concerned about what others will think if they see me crying.

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  5. We all have something or other we wish to change. As for me, I would like to stick to a routine for some days. Not for always though :P

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    1. I gave up that wish of mine long ago. And moreover I find routines monotonous.

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  6. We are similar with regards to one, four, six and seven. I just can't say no to people and hesitate in opposing someone who is family like ny couz stupid wife who speak rubbish all the time. I hate herrr..lolz

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    1. Happy you could relate.
      I could clearly see your frustration for that couz wife... hehe... don't worry we all have relatives like that who gets under our skin.

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  7. We are similar with regards to one, four, six and seven. I just can't say no to people and hesitate in opposing someone who is family like ny couz stupid wife who speak rubbish all the time. I hate herrr..lolz
    www.vishalbheeroo.wordpress.com

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  8. I definitely wish I could change my forgetfulness! The number of times I've forgotten my keys or phone when I leave the house....!!!

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  9. Same is the topic for my post today. I can understand how at times we want to and at the same time not want to change some of our traits...

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  10. It is rare for a person to see oneself so clearly.

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  11. it requires courage to identify one's own faults and then put them in front of others - commendable

    you can check out my post here-
    Karan - Brother

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  12. knowing who and what we are is the first step in loving ourselves...to be able to see ourselves with all our faults and shortcomings and wanting to make a positive move in that direction is proof enough of how much we love ourselves!! great going!

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  13. Me is always favorite :) knowing what really i am and what i want in life is the most idiolic task of life. ur post really seems an honest attempt :) nice read

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