Dear
Child,
I'm
sorry.
I'm so
sorry my dearest daughter … I'm going to kill you before giving you a chance to
live.
I'm
sorry for snatching away your right to live, even when you're just my dream.
I
always wanted you to be mine. Dreamt and loved you like forever now. But now I
don't want you to be born in this world. Yes. I don’t!
A world
where you have to fight constantly to just live. Where you have to be vigil
every minute to just breathe.
I don't
want those annoying aunties to stare at you when you chose cars and guns along
with your dolls. Or give you an earful when you opt for shorts and jeans over
frocks and skirts. I don't want you to be forced to have long hair just because
you're a girl.
I don't
want you to worry about the world before you decide to do anything. I don't
want you to live in a world where you'll be tagged as opinionated, stubborn and
ruthless when you stand for yourself. Don't want you to fight and struggle
against the egos of the opposite sex when you climb those ladders in your
career. Nor tag you as a slut when you go for a movie or dinner with your male
friend. I don't want you to be called a flirt when you prefer male friends over
females. Or a whore when you chose to be sexually active.
I don't
want you to worry about been safe when you're working late. Or be told that
been a girl you have to ignore those disrespectful behaviors from your
boyfriend/husband/anyone. I don't want you to wake up from your sleep multiple
times to ensure that you have bolted the doors and no one will intrude your
privacy. I don't want you to be born in a world where suffering, forgiving and
been silent is considered as the virtues of women only. A world where male
strength is considered as a gift to abuse women…. No, my dear… I don’t want you
to be born here.
Don’t
think I’m against men; in fact I still love and move forward in life because of
the men in my life. But now a day it’s rare to find such souls. And it’s not
about men only. When you start living you’ll understand even some women are
there to make your life terrible.
I
wanted you to be born in a world where you're respected for the human being
you're. Cared for the goodness you exhibit. Appreciated for your bravery and
not for the perfection others demand. I
want you to be loved for the kind nature of yours and not because you're born a
Woman.
I want
you to be born in a world you deserve dear. And I promise my child, that you'll feel a lot happier and safe inside my dreams.
Yours
Always.