Thursday, January 8, 2015

Then and Now...


10 years ago, I never for once thought at 25 this is how my life will be. At 15 when life looked so hopeful, filled with so much of promises, added with confidence and anything to do attitude, I thought, Yes! This is life. No tears, worries, losses, or anything bad. Then, it was all about aiming for the stars.

But down the lane, when I started to grow, I encountered everything. From good to best, bad to worse, flickering heart to heart break. There were days when I lost the love I had for life. When you lose the strive for happiness, you leave your dreams aside, thinking dreaming less will help you settle for less and leaves you happy. But that was my first and biggest mistake! It took time to realize that it was my dreams that gave me confidence to smile, to be talkative, jovial and alive. When I left that urge to dream to someone else, I became just another body which was just breathing but not living. But now at 25, I know that living is all about making your dreams come true and reaching for those stars. Thou it’s going to take twice the time to reach there now, been an over-confident-female, I know I’ll touch those untouchable stars.



At 15, if someone said that I might find a good friend in a stranger, I would have laughed out loud and dismissed the very thought. But today, I embrace the fact and believe in that. You can be friends with a person in a wink. There need not be a history or a future. Just, the present matters and the connection you feel for that one. You can open up more comfortably to a stranger than to an old friend. You can find that life-long-friendship in a person sitting next to you in a metro. You can have that unspoken-unwritten-good-or-bad-I’m-there-treaty of friendship with a person you just met in FB. You can tell your deepest fear or closest secret to that person you always knew existed but just got a chance to talk. You can find a typical weirdo like you in that comment section of your blog all of a sudden.



Life always, always brings so many people into our life for reasons or no reasons that can be explained only by life itself. And sometimes we may wonder how we survived before them. But there’s a time for everything. Like the verse says… For everything there is a season, a time for every activity under Heaven. A time to be born and a time to die. A time to plant and a time to harvest (Bible, Ecclesiastes 3). Likewise, a time for every people and every dream.

At 15, I thought life was so happy and colorful like a rainbow. But now I realize, life indeed is a rainbow, and the different colors portray the different emotions in life. And now at this moment, I may not be where I wanted to be... I may not be happy with all the decisions I took in life... I may not be having the job I dreamed of or the people I thought will be there... But now I know life is all about experiences, doing mistakes, letting go, extending one hand to shake hands with new people yet holding the other one with people from your yesterdays, dreaming about the stars and living the untold journey. And I am happy doing that. 




24 comments :

  1. I think as years pass on we get we discover more of ourselves ... It's like layers of ourselves being revealed gradually... a process of discovery I think ...

    Enjoyed reading this

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  2. Change is the only constant. Loved the post. Thanks for stopping by my blog earlier. Bests, Sam.

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  3. Live and learn, that's how it goes! Enjoy the ride and keep smiling :)

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  4. I agree, it is so easy to make friends and life does get merrier when you let go the rigidity of mindset with regards to these things. Loved the warm tone of this post :)

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    1. I agree with you Vinodini. When we let ourselves open to others, we get to meet so many new people, and some turn out to be great human beings too. Thanks for reading. :)

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  5. We learn something valuable as each year goes by, right? The trick is to take the best of it and leave the rest behind. Keep writing, Sheethal :)

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    1. So right! :)

      Thanks Aathira... I am trying to get back to writing. :)

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  6. So glad to see some posting happening here. I hope to follow suit soon enough.

    As for you, I love the person you are, and you do know that don't you? 15 or 51, you must always keep that flame of insanity and the zest for life alive. Hugs.

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  7. 10 years from now, you'll be laughing at all those experiences that you thought were matter of life and death. As we grow we mature slowly and steadily. And what was important at one point of time will seem highly irrelevant years on.

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    1. So true Rekha. How we think now, if only we were more mature back then.... but that's how life is, na?

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  8. Yes, isn't it great to know that you can become friends with someone you just met in person or even via social media such as FB. ;) And by the way, I might be that "typical weirdo like you in that comment section of your blog." ;) <3

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  9. Life is indeed a rainbow and we get to enjoy all of its different hues and nuances.

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  10. Much belated birthday wishes to you! I love the wisdom of your words!

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    1. Thank you for the wishes Roshni.... but my birthday is not until June. :) ... And thanks for reading too...

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  11. Such a good post to read Sheethal.. straight from heart.. I guess when you try to stop figuring what life is all about and start living it.. you actually live it? I liked the post but something that's just going to stay along more than other lines is: "There need not be a history or a future. Just, the present matters"

    Cheers.. best wishes.. :)

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    1. Thank you so much. :)

      I do agree with, we have to live life rather than trying to figure out some unanswered questions or doubts. But at time, we tend to question even our existence, na?

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    2. kind of cliche.. but dreams, passion, and everything zero downs to purpose, doesn't it? Finding meaning for existence (but am too lazy to ponder :D ).. pursuit of happiness indeed :)

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    3. But why all this purposes and why we are here? :P

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