B for ... #AtoZChallenge2016

Bhageerathi never felt fit in like other children. When everyone was quiet and played with their dolls and kitchen sets, she chose to play football, climb trees and be a free spirit. Thou her parents constantly reminded her that girls have to silent and should raise their voice, or run around like boys, she never let that kill the fire inside her. All her thoughts, rage and dreams where for the pages behind her notebooks. She never felt good enough to share her words with anyone. But she found solace in them. It made her happy and in peace. And one day when her best friend discovered her words, and convinced her that her words shouldn’t be hidden like this, a beautiful bold artist was born. 

It just takes one person to take you forward. And for Bhageerathi that was her friend.  

A for .... #AtoZChallenge2016

All we have is all we need. All we need is the awareness of how blessed we really are. - Sarah Ban Breathnach

“The universe revolves around me." That's a theory I heard for the first time from a friend. And from how he derived, I felt it's kind of true too. We are living in a world where it’s practically being followed so blindly by some and ignored by the rest. But in a way it's good until and unless you don't turn mean and into a snob.

When you face the world confidently and very positively nothing absolutely nothing could stop you from achieving what you want in life. Nothing could stop you from exhibiting who you're in real. When in self-doubt, or when you feel that you need someone else to exist happily, this world revolves around yourself is the best self-booster you could find anywhere. Unless you're not important nothing takes that tiny effort to revolve around you, or even look at you. So when this extremely powerful and prosperous world takes that effort why can't you take a small step to ensure your own happiness and good life. When this world wants you, only you to be its center of attraction then why you have to run away from it and hide somewhere not reachable. We tend to give up on our own happy-evers knowingly and unknowingly at times. Even I tend to do that, and most of the times it's knowingly. Why? I got plenty of reasons to justify my own dos. But I got only one reason to back out from all those. That is a simple "I'm not happy with that" statement. But that is the most meaningful or logical statement you could ever make.

I am not the right person to say about follow your heart and live your life kind of statements. Simply because I fluctuate from doing so. But when you give up on something you love so dearly, you get the true value of that. When you give up your happiness and life you held so dear and near to your heart, your eyes open to a realization that nothing else is important other than you and your happiness and your own life. So amaze yourself by been the center of the whole universe and create a more happy life. 

Stay blessed and have a beautiful A-Z month. All the best dear friends.

Where art thou, Muse?

One fine day when my life was not doing so fine, out of whim I decided to write about that. And gradually every quietly my blog was born. Initially I was the only person around, but that didn’t bother me. I just wanted a space to scribble down my thoughts. Some time passed and then April came. A-Z challenge happened. It’s a Geminian trait that you commit for anything and everything. Likewise I also did. But fortunately I completed the whole month. There I met many like-minded people and I started writing more, exploring more, getting inspired, got befriended and my blog was blooming. Again A-Z happened and many prompts and challenges and fests too. And some years passed with so much of writing. 

When I started the blog, I was full time student, then a full time working woman in real life. But still I was able to take care of my space. But then I gave up my 9-5 desk job for my own work-space. Slowly work started to eat me up. Books, movies and sleep took up the little free time I got. I didn’t know at the other side of the world, my muse was waiting for me patiently to at least have a glance at him. But I was too busy to attend and eventually he got bored waiting for me, so he took a long vacation! Yes. He did that! I think it’s only a vacation since I believe and truly hope that he can’t really leave me. Can he? 

So here I’m waiting for him to return with some juicy gossips and some dark tales from his almost a yearlong wander life. 

Reflections and Realizations ...

This has been going around in blogosphere for some time now. And it’s been in my drafts also for long now. This was first published in Oprah.com. So this year I decided to write it down at last. These questions make you to reflect upon yourself so thought why not? And here goes …

   1.      What Younger You Would Like About Present You?

         I always wanted to be my own boss. And right now I’m that. Thou I still have some of the ambitions to achieve, soon… very soon.

   2.      The Watched/Read It List

         Currently not reading or watching anything. I regret that, but just too tied up with life and tired to take a break too. But 2016 is going to be different atleast in the case of my reading.

   3.      The Mistake You Never Want to Make

          Follow the mass. Do something because the society demands so.

   4.      Your Ideal Outfit

           Jeans, a nice top, heels/sneakers/flats and a handbag. Anytime of the day or night.

   5.      A Deep, Dark—Shhh—Secret

           I love myself too much. ;)

   6.      The Most Unexpected Compliment You Ever Got

        I got a group of friends who are non-expressive just like me. And any compliment from their side is so unexpected. But two days before when talking to S (one of my close friend’s right from school) he complimented me on being an awesome person. Awe! What more you need? ;)

   7.      That One Quote

         I don’t know whether it’s a quote or something I made up myself, but for long I have been clinging to this one statement whenever I’m not happy. “Whatever happens in life, move on with a Smile.”

   8.      Your True Happiness

        I find happiness when people linked to me are happy, that includes my family, my close friends and my dear ones. 

   9.      Your favorite failure

     Relations that made me give so much … gave me memories and lessons and which actually changed me in a good way, and at the end which took a part of me with them.

   10.  An amendment to the bucket list

          A solo vacation.  

Yes. That's my reflection for now. Don't know what the New year is going to hold for me, and for people round me. But hoping and wishing with all my heart that better and good things comes through all our path in 2016. 

Sarah ...

She stood near her mom's grave. When she drew her last breath Sarah was away in Uni. And it’s been two years since then and this is the first time she's visiting her mom. 

When her father informed about her mom's death, she didn't feel anything. It was as if a chapter was closed all by itself, without any dramas. She never felt any connection with her mom.  Her mom didn't exhibit any motherly affection towards her even when she was a child. And Sarah always felt like a stranger who came out of her mother's womb.

"It's nice to make good memories. And I wished you had done the same with me too." Sarah said out aloud standing next to mom's grave.

Linking this to BAR Wordy Wenesday

Random Scribblings ...

Life is been pretty busy yet slow for the past few months. I have been technically away from blogging after the April challenge. I went for a vacation in June and from there it was kind of a roller-coaster ride. My Evernote is full of uncompleted drafts which I have no idea how to complete and yet I hope to do some other day of my life.

I have been investing my time and energy into a new venture of ours and it seems like at the end of the day I just want to curl up in my bed and sleep! Nothing else matters then. But should add, religiously I take my laptop every night and open MSWord thinking of scribbling something but which results in endless staring at the blinking cursor. Exhausted, I tune myself to a movie and stay glued to it.

I sometimes wish there was this technology where your writings from a notebook get transferred to your PC just-like-that. Likewise, I sometimes wish I could just pack my backpack and go see the world leaving all my obligations and responsibilities. Sometimes life is full of those just-like-that wishes. At times I get this sudden irresistible urge to go somewhere far alone for sometime, or just sleep for a whole day, or be invisible from everything or start up something dramatic or just blog more frequently. I know all these are not so not-possible things. But just mundane very much possible things. I know… I know… but sometimes it’s just difficult. Maybe I’m just too lazy.

Recently a dear friend of mine send me an excerpt from a book. It’s about the author been questioned about his past. The author is proud about the things he has done in his yester-years, but the people around him question the morality in that. What do you think? Personally I believe my past defines me. I have done wrong, took the most stupid decisions, have compromised for less worth things, have hurt my near ones, have suffered the consequences of my doings,  have lost and gained, smiled and cried ... but I don’t regret anything I have done. Maybe if given a chance I might have opted for more subtle decisions when it’s concerned with other people. But still I believe our yesterdays are just are learning days were we gain courage to grow. Hope we all gain strength from our past and have the courage and energy to live our present with a dream of brighter tomorrows. 

So what is your take on this? And is your day going on?

Linking this to Write Tribe #MondayMusings

Wake-Up Call

When a little boy came with a small bucket and spade, all business like, she got curious. He just looked all-around and settled down at a spot which felt best for him. And there he started building his castle out of sand. She felt as if he was showing her life being built. Carefully and patiently he was drawing the castle's perimeter in the sand and then he mounded a big pile of sand inside it. After that he made a hole in the center, filled it with water, and tamped it down. Slowly he added layers of sand and water until he had a firm and level mound. Then when was all set to finish a huge tide came and washed off half of his sand castle. He was going to scream his lungs out of sadness, she was betting on that. But she was amused when he angrily glared at the sea and started rebuilding his castle again, as if telling the sea that nothing could stop him from making him finish what he started. And that was the wake-up call for her, to rebuild her life again, to rejuvenate herself and start fresh. 

Linking this to BAR Wordy Wednesday.