Life is
been pretty busy yet slow for the past few months. I have been technically away
from blogging after the April challenge. I went for a vacation in June and from
there it was kind of a roller-coaster ride. My Evernote is full of uncompleted
drafts which I have no idea how to complete and yet I hope to do some other day
of my life.
I have
been investing my time and energy into a new venture of ours and it seems like
at the end of the day I just want to curl up in my bed and sleep! Nothing else
matters then. But should add, religiously I take my laptop every night and open MSWord thinking of scribbling something but which results in endless staring at
the blinking cursor. Exhausted, I tune myself to a movie and stay glued to it.
I
sometimes wish there was this technology where your writings from a notebook
get transferred to your PC just-like-that. Likewise, I sometimes wish I could
just pack my backpack and go see the world leaving all my obligations and
responsibilities. Sometimes life is full of those just-like-that wishes. At times
I get this sudden irresistible urge to go somewhere far alone for sometime, or
just sleep for a whole day, or be invisible from everything or start up
something dramatic or just blog more frequently. I know all these are not so
not-possible things. But just mundane very much possible things. I know… I know…
but sometimes it’s just difficult. Maybe I’m just too lazy.
Recently
a dear friend of mine send me an excerpt from a book. It’s about the author been
questioned about his past. The author is proud about the things he has done in
his yester-years, but the people around him question the morality in that. What do
you think? Personally I believe my past defines me. I have done wrong, took the
most stupid decisions, have compromised for less worth things, have hurt my
near ones, have suffered the consequences of my doings, have lost and gained, smiled and cried ... but I
don’t regret anything I have done. Maybe if given a chance I might have opted for
more subtle decisions when it’s concerned with other people. But still I
believe our yesterdays are just are learning days were we gain courage to grow.
Hope we all gain strength from our past and have the courage and energy to live
our present with a dream of brighter tomorrows.
So what
is your take on this? And is your day going on?
I think we all have some regrets, but I agree that our past makes us who we are today, for better or worse - and that's ok. :)
ReplyDeleteAmen! :)
DeleteIt's a bit of a tricky one, isn't it? Yes, we learn a lot from the past, but often they are things we'd like to forget too. Especially if they've been 'unpleasant'. But yes, it is the whole collective experience that makes us the person we are today.
ReplyDeletePS. Time to put those drafts into publish mode, young lady!
Guess.... in a way our past defines us.
DeleteP.S. Yes Boss!! :)
We sure cannot change our past... might as well own up and move on. Like they say everything in life happens for a purpose.
ReplyDeleteJust like all those incomplete writings of yours. There will come a time for them to shape up and bloom into a much matured writing ... perhaps. Good luck with them.
Thank you Jayanthi :)
DeleteI too have got ideas in my draft but couldn't find enough time to write them. Hope you get to publish your drafts soon. The quote is so positive and beautiful. Thanks for sharing :)
ReplyDeleteThanks Raj :)
DeleteThe past is the foundation on which our future is built ... I echo your sentiments... enjoyed reading it.. :-)
ReplyDeleteThank you so much :)
DeleteI feel the same way about my past too, Sheetal. No regrets. I'm so glad to see you blogging again and hopefully all those drafts will see the light of day. Take care and be you! ♥
ReplyDeleteThank you so much Corinne. So happy to see you here <3
DeleteVery true, Sheethal. I feel the same way. I have made some pretty dumb choices in my past, and taken rash decisions,but given the choice, I would not change a thing. Those learning experiences are crucial to the person I am now, and since I am happy with the end result, I do not want to change the means to the end. :)
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