Dear World,
That
morning I woke up feeling happy, yet a bit lazy too. It was the last day of my vacation
and the next day I was supposed to start my internship. All those years of hard
work and midnight lanterns have finally given me the two letters I earned for
line. Dr. And now after this internship, I can actually practice my profession.
Can make my parents proud. Gain them back what all they gave up for my studies.
But one
night movie with a male friend changed my life; in fact ended my life and
dreams. If only I didn’t get into that bus, if only I had called a cab or just
walked... I would have been still alive. The moment I stepped inside the bus, I
knew something is not right. Maybe from the way those men stared at us, or the
way they talked to my friend. But never in my dream had I thought they would
actually dare to touch me. And touch me and crawl on me where all. I wanted to
be doctor, to ease the pain of others. But I was forced to undergo such pain, I
didn’t even realize existed. Never in life had I felt that humiliated and vulnerable.
Never before I wanted just to lose conscious and not know what these so called
humans were doing to me. After hours ... after they have done with me ... they
tossed us out of the bus like some trash. Not even once, considering us as
fellow humans.And
when those abusers acted inhumane, the passersby acted cruelly. They just
ignored to see us. I am actually glad I’m no more living in that world, where no
one is bothered about anyone. No one cares about others pain or sufferings.
But I forgive
them. I forgive those 6 men who shattered my life and led me through heart
wrenching pains and gave my parents lifelong loss. I forgive those passersby
who ignored us and who could have helped us if they had a bit of humanity in
them. But how could I forgive people who actually had the nerve to point their
fingers on me for been abused. How could I forgive them for telling the world
that going out with a male friend after dark is against our culture? How could
I forgive the rapist who said that I woman shouldn’t have fought back when she’s
raped? But I should have been silent and allowed them to do whatever they want
to do with my body. They say Indian culture is the best culture. And without missing
a beat they also said that in the best culture there’s no place for women. I
wonder how a man who said he would put petrol on her and set her alight,
actually be called a father. No woman wants someone to address her as a gem or
diamond or a soft flower. But she just wants to be treated equal or at least in
a respected way. She just wants to live in a country where she is not accused of been the victim, where she have the right to sue the people who ruptured her life or where the public figures of the country don't have the nerve to insult women in public and gain popularity for the same. We just want to live our life, they way we want and not the way t he society implies us.
I am
happy now. I am happy that I don’t have to worry about what I’ll have to wear in
order not provoke men. Glad that I don’t have to stand in front a mirror and
check from all the angles to see whether my skin is been exposed. Relieved that
I don’t have to fear the dark and the ferocious animals that roam around at
that night waiting to prowl on me. I am in a happier place where men and women
are just beautiful souls. And if ever I’ll have another life, I just wish to be
born into world were a human being is treated and seen with humanity and
concern.
Peace
to all.
And stay
strong and together in love.
Me.
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I can't imagine the pain she went through or the pain women go through...It breaks my heart and then I want to remove from this world each and every person who thinks it's okay to torture girls!
ReplyDeleteIf only the world was safe for the girls... if only the girls could actually live their life as they wish... And if wishes were horses...
DeleteWe live in a terrible society where there is no respite for women even in their own homes. Sad reality! Hope this ends and we have a better world for us and our children!
ReplyDeleteSeriously hoping and praying too...
DeleteGreat words and heart chilling. Nirbhaya sitl lives among us..!
ReplyDeleteThank you... yes... she'll always...
DeleteI don't even want to go into what these mindless insensitive creatures say. I wonder if they do it just for publicity. These people bring in me such hatred !!!
ReplyDeleteThey make this world so cruel...
DeleteThe letter is so terrifying and chilling that I broke down while reading it. To think what must have been going through her mind as she experienced it all. My mind cannot come to terms with it :(
ReplyDeleteEvery woman could feel her pain, na... May God bless her in the other world.
DeleteSuch sad situation; you wrote this beautifully though.
ReplyDeletebetty
Thank You Betty.
Deleteoh god, heart wrenching...
ReplyDeletevery beautifully penned....
Thanks Archana.
DeleteI am speechless, sad and angry at the same time. Things have to change for women everywhere, each stroke of the pen helps.
ReplyDeleteThings definitely have to change. Orelse this world is going to see more of this.
DeleteTo think that she actually lived those moments is horrifying. Nothing can change that this happened. It is heart breaking.
ReplyDeleteMay she be at peace in he other world at least.
DeleteTo think that she lived those moments is horrifying. Hopefully one day our nation will learn to treat everyone with respect. Hopefully then Nirbhaya will achieve peace.
ReplyDeleteFingers crossed for that day...
DeleteI got goosebumps reading this one. The pain, the suffering, the sacrifice and yet the abuse continues...The mentality needs to change.
ReplyDeleteI am proud of you for writing this.
If only the world could see thorough our eyes...
DeleteThanks Red.
Can't imagine the horror she must have gone through. Don't know how people can behave like this - worse than animals. Like the way you portrayed this.
ReplyDeleteThank you Suzy.
DeleteThis letter was so painful to read. But, you did capture the essence of the event very well. I cant even begin to imagine the pain that she went through and the huge sense of loss her parents are left with. This is just so wrong and cruel. I hope she is born in a better world. A world that we contribute in creating for our children and the future generations to come.
ReplyDeleteI am scared to even think that I'll have to bring my children to such a world...
DeleteI just wrote about all the asinine comments that people can make after such horrific incidents! Just so outrageous!
ReplyDeleteSo true Roshni...
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