I and Me.

I am thinking – that 'm insane or stupid ... Can't decide which one...

I said – to myself, it’s probably the others, they all look and act insane...

I hear – strange voices in my head questioning me.

I wish – I knew what I’m doing and where I’m heading...

I badly wish - I was Not born in a world where there's a huge lot of inequality between men and women.

I am – surprisingly simple or intensely complicated thoughtful soul.

I want – a job which 'm passionate about and a den where i can be alone but surrounded with books.

I miss – my childhood.

I sing – not that bad.

I wonder – what life has in store for me...

I am not – as optimist as in fairy tales but not too pessimist also.

I write – to clear my head and help me let go of pent up emotions.

I hate – people who don’t respect others, those who don’t value others emotions and ideologies and those who are just plain spineless.

I confuse – myself into believing that all people are inherently good.

I’ve learnt – some people are pure Evil.

I am passionate - about my dear ones...

I believe - it’s all about attitude and how u deal with whatever that happens.

I should – learn to let go more easily and move on with life.

I finish – everything I start.... or try to....

I regret – for some decisions I was not bold enough to take.

 

 

 

P.S.  The idea from a fellow blogger. 

 

 

Keep Smiling.

God Blez.

 

 

India... ... India... ... India... ... !!!!!!!!

Happy Birthday Motherland !!!



This is indeed India!

The land of dreams and romance, of fabulous wealth and fabulous poverty, of splendour and rags, of palaces and hovels, of famine and pestilence, of genii and giants and Aladdin lamps, of tigers and elephants, the cobra and the jungle, the country of hundred nations and a hundred tongues, of a thousand religions and two million gods, cradle of the human race, birthplace of human speech, mother of history, grandmother of legend, great-grandmother of traditions, whose yesterday's bear date with the modering antiquities for the rest of nations-the one sole country under the sun that is endowed with an imperishable interest for alien prince and alien peasant, for lettered and ignorant, wise and fool, rich and poor, bond and free, the one land that all men desire to see, and having seen once, by even a glimpse, would not give that glimpse for the shows of all the rest of the world combined.

-Mark Twain.

P.S. God Blez.

:)



Just being Happy :)

HAPPY.  Coz ‘m alive at the moment. J

HAPPY.  Coz ‘m writing this. J

HAPPY.  Coz I have some crazy bunch of people who are there with all my stupid idiotic acts. J

HAPPY.  Coz can talk hours to my friends. J

HAPPY.  Coz ‘m smiling and I love my smile. J

HAPPY.  Coz I can drive and roam about. J

HAPPY.  Coz I can go shopping. J

HAPPY.  Coz ‘m arrogant, stubborn n childish and still there are people who loves me. J

HAPPY.  Coz I can read and I love books. J

HAPPY.  Coz my childhood friend found her Mr. Perfect. J J SUPER DUPER EXTRA HAPPY.  J J

HAPPY.  Coz I still fight with my lil Bro. J

HAPPY.  Coz they are people who won't forget to wish me morning n night every day. J

HAPPY.  Coz i have a job. J

HAPPY.  Coz i can talk nonstop. J

HAPPY.  Coz ‘m a chocoholic. J

HAPPY.  Coz I have people who luv me too the core. J

HAPPY.  Coz I have memories of dear ones i miss. J

HAPPY.  Coz I have people who miss me when 'm not around. J

HAPPY.  Coz I have a cosy blanket to snuggle at night. J

HAPPY.  Coz I have a mob to chit chat and tip tap 24*7. J

HAPPY.  Coz I have people who would attend my call even at 3 30am and talk for hours. J

HAPPY.  Coz I have place to go after a day's work. J

HAPPY.  Coz I have people to weigh down my anger/sorrows. J  

HAPPY.  Coz I think too much and i love my thoughts. J

HAPPY.  Coz I can read and books are my companion. J

HAPPY.  Coz I know m not alone even when i feel lonely. J

HAPPY.  Coz I love being me and 'm my favorite. J

HAPPY.  Coz 'm a lucky Lady to have all these HAPPINESS. J J J

P.S. I love my life even thou it is truly awful at times.

God Blez.

Keep Smiling.

J

Miss you. Always.

Three years.!!!!

Three years of stillness. Soo much have changed... right from the surroundings to people to life itself. But the vaccum you left in us, remains the same... even at the moment.

The intensity of missing you got deeper as years went, but never any less. No days pass by without wishing you to be here.

Just.......... Tak care.

Love you.
God Blez.




P.S.On your Third year in heaven !!!

Happy Birthday Sis :)

Happy Birthday to you

Happy Birthday to you

Happy Birthday Happy Birthday

Happy Birthday dear Rais

Happiiiiiieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee Birthday to youuuuuuuuuuuuu!

Big Grins and Claps.!!!

Many Many happiee returns of yours only special day my dear sissy dear. May you have loads and loads of blessings, laughter, joys, smiles, love, luck, wealth, health and beauty throughout your life.

I never know what to gift you… Even last year gifting something for you on your birthday was more stressful than my exams. Coz nothing seems to convey what you are to me.

You were always been the Best friend in a sis. Even thou in childhood we didn't knew each other much… after that we seemed to be around for each, always. I wanna explicitly tell you that I love you and miss you for who you are. Miss all your cheerful being, that silly fights, gossips, rides around the city, going for ice cold drinks after being completely soaked in rain, commenting each and every one irrespective of their gender, movies, photo sessions and more.

You’re the best and genuinely feel blessed to have you in my life, dear.

Do remember I’ll always be there for you, even after your Prince charming comes and sweeps you off the floor. (Fingers crossed for that :D).  

Keep smiling and be happy always. Stay the way you are.
And go get marry sooon. Can't wait to meet my jeejz and to be a proud aunt to my bubbly cutey naughty niece/nephew(s). :D :P

Once more Happy Birthday to my Dazzling Rocking Shining Beautiful Sister. :*

Love you Shibukuttttiiiiiiiiiii. J J

Have fun and enjoy your day.

P.S. God Blez.

J

Emotions.

I have one of the worst mood swing syndrome. I can be the most pleasant female this moment and an angry young woman the next.


Today was one fine example for this disease of mine. 
From morning i was in my worst mood. And soon tears started dancing in my lacriminal gland. But the inner stubborn Goddess in me, the control freak took dominance over my tears. And every ounce of my energy and patience seemed to drain out of me controlling myself.
I just wanted to be out of my workplace asap. And at these rotten times of mine there are some poor souls who get the best out of me. And once out  of office i didn't even wanted to go home. Infact i wanted to be alone.
I don't know what was bothering me. But i was just too frustrated. And before it was too late the tears left their stage and started flowing down my cheeks. I absolutely hate when my tears fail me and smirk at me and my inner Goddess, so openly. 


Mmmmh.......... Overall this day was not my piece of cake.


But noone promised life to be beautiful and fair always.


So everything has to be accepted.


Hoping for a better tomorrow.





P.S. Just letting out my emotions.






Keep Smiling.


God Blez.

Friendship Day :)

Happpieeeeeeeee Friendship Day to alll.... :)

P.S.  For every Tom there should be Jerry to irritate the hell out of him, still, stand against the world to support him and love him like a best buddy.

God Blez.

:)

Blurt Out.

It’s not about feeling good… it’s about getting accustomed with what you have and been happy for that. No one told that life was fair. And definitely life is never easy. It is so hard despite the beautiful theories and writings.

Life is Beautiful? Yea, life is beautiful, but only at certain moments. But the reality is stinking. Hard core sorrows and pains are always round the corner waiting to pounce its' claws on you. Get used to that!

Life is so monotonous. Even during most remembered years of our education, it was monotonous. But, then, there, we were lucky to find some souls as disturbed and crazy as us.  And hence the monotony was converted to pure fun. But when stepping into the reality of real life, usually we fail to find such souls and we keep on searching. And before long we just dismiss the search hormones. With that unfinished job left, we get frustrated and end up blaming  it on and in everything around us.

But what’s better than to blame it all on ourselves?

P.S. Don’t know what this is all about.  Just pure insanity.

God blez.

Random Talks

When someone says you don’t sound like a Keralite…:) :)...  Don’t know whether it was in a good way or not….. But I prefer taking it as a compliment…. Especially when I have heard a lot of teasing regarding my accent back home.  

I couldn’t thank you at that moment….. .. .. Blame it on Work pressure, please…  But Thank you.

J

P.S. God Blez.

Knock Knock

August is always a month of terror for me. It was in this month i lost a dear one. For me it’s always about how much i wish him to be here... But at the moment want to jot down about him...

Just him.

He came into my life just like that. Without invitation, without warning or even without knocking.

One most beautiful thing M and I share is our Birth date. Being pretty obsessed with that date it was like an extra bonus to us. And, our favorite song is also the same, apart from the Campus. Subject we studied. Place we are from. Coffee. Beach. Sea foods. Night rides. Etc... 

Actually. similarities didn't find us, we found them.  

He is a person who genuinely loves his parents, adores his sisters, who would die for his friends, who respect women, die hard animal lover, have concern for the less fortunate, who behaves really well to those who waits at tables in restaurants, who doesn’t hesitate to say sorry, who is not embarrassed to let his tears flow, who admits his mistakes, who would try his best to keep promises and soo much of a lovable persona.

He’s actually one guy I have seen who would do anything under the sun for his loved ones. He would travel from across the sea just to see you. Could go to any extreme just for a Smile on your face. He’s a person who values even the minute happiness or moments. And who gets happy and sad for small small things. 

An athlete by passion and a business man by profession. He likes to read long mails and personal messages in cards. He's Brand cautious. Love bright colors. He would laugh his head off for the silliest and keeps a straight face for the funniest.

He also have a heck of attitude, adamant like a kid, with a pinch of arrogance added to stubbornness, anger at the tip of his nose, soo much of possessiveness which makes you feel special , soo powerfully strong and too bold. A misnomer!

I would say,  A good example for an Imperfectly Perfect Man.

P.S.  Miss hearing from You.

P.S.S. 'Present tense' makes happy endings.

P.S.S.S.  Keep Smiling.

God Blez.