A full lived life!

My Grandmom (from mom's side) died yesterday morning at around 12 am IST. She was 85 years old.

And according to me she lead a full life. She had a beautiful martial life with her handsome husband with loads of love, laughter, fights and so much of hard works. She is survived by 4 kids out of 6, their spouses, 17 grandchildren and 7 great grand kids. Wow! I just love my family.

She was such a strong person with a beautiful and such a charming personality. And an awesome cook. She was a warm person with a kind heart and an enchanting smile. Even thou I was not so close to her, I was very fond of her. She always gave me that absolute "Grandma" feeling.

When heard that she's no more... there was a lost feeling, even thou it was expected. But the reality of her physical form gone, along with her voice, her presence and her warmth, everything just vanished with her. Also the trace of a whole generation.

I always loved that family reunion moments. When we meet the people that was meant only for us, the people who's insanity do match us and makes us feel a little less weird for been the way we are, the people with which we feel so connected and rejuvenated the instant we lay our eyes on them, the moment our "mature parents" starts behaving like kids along with their siblings. I just love all those memories. For all this, thanks of my Grandma. Coz, without her none of us might have been born. 

I will miss her. But I guess my mom and her siblings just felt as if a part of their life just vanished along with their Mom. Her mom! Yea, she too had a mom like me. She too was a child once, and she too have clinged to her many times. And losing your threshold forever is a tremendous loss. And this made me think about how I will also loss my mom once and how my kids will loss their's. Guess its's a never ending process of life.

P.S. No-one can take a Mom's place. 

God Blez.

D for... ...

Today is 4th of April. So the fourth day of the A to Z challenge. Fourth day, fourth alphabet, fourth post of the month.

D for Daughter! :)


A daughter is a mother's gender partner, her closest ally in the family confederacy, an extension of her self.
- Anonymous 

Daughter, to you in the future.

Hey Beautiful,

This is to my little girl written years before you were born. Writing a letter to you in the future, seems weird? No! Just so much special to meet you in your twenties, when I myself is in my early twenties. Coz, maybe in course of time and age I might find these things a bit trivial.

Sweetheart, love u so much. Even before you were born you were my dream. And when I get to hold you for the first time will be my happiest moment. The bundle of joy would be with me at last. And will be my Princess forever. 

I want you to know me right from the moment I started dreaming about you. I want you to know me when I was your age, are you like me?? Want to know whether your thoughts, ideas and deeds resemble mine. Don't think I am comparing you. I just wanted to share myself with you. I want to preserve my optimism, ideologies and passion for me. Right now I want to see my dream of giving a strong hand to the less privileged children to make their life colorful and to adopt a girl. 

Always remember.

You are beautiful. Not just from outside but from within. Your Smile is your biggest strength. I want you to save a smile under any circumstances, because that makes you strong. Always look at yourself first thing in the morning.... And however you look ... just be proud of who you are. There's only one YOU in this whole world. And you're Unique. Special. Rare. I want you to be your first love. People may love you or hate you. But remember there are a certain bunch of folks called family and friends who will love you and be with you for who you are. So treasure them and cherish them forever. And never take anyone for granted. Respect everyone's ideologies and their space. Then they will respect yours too.

Read a lot. I want you to read fairy tales and believe in them. It’s always about the good winning the bad and living happily ever after. Believe in good. I wish your life is filled with books. Coz you get so much out of a page. Stand up for what you think is right and be bold. Never hesitate to speak out from your mind. Never stand back and keep silent. Trust your instincts. Almost every time they turn out to be right. Keep a journal and update it regularly. It'll help you to track yourself.

Go travel around the world. See what’s happening at the other part of the world. Understand that this place is not made of happiness only but with sorrows too. Find happiness in your tears too. It's ok to cry, but never at the drop of a hat. You will have your heart broken, maybe so many times, but don't let that let you down. Cry a bit, talk to your BFF and go out and enjoy the beauty of the world. 

Don't be afraid to make mistakes and take risks. I have done more than enough and still doing. You’ll learn from both and but try not to repeat the same mistake more than once. Whatever happens always Believe in God. I want you to go to church regularly.

Find your passion and hold on to it forever. It will take you to great heights in career and in happiness. Never compromise your passion even for me. This is one privilege 'm giving you now itself.

Be stubborn in your principles. Peer or parental pressures should not make u change them.

Always lend your ears to others. Be a good listener. Show concern. Show respect. Remember expect God everyone is a shade of grey. Accept them for who they are. Find Good in everyone. Treat people the way you want them to treat you. Trust others but don't let anyone hurt your feelings. Try never to be the reason for anyone's tears. Try to make a difference in at least a person's life. You will feel blessed for that forever. 

Make it a habit to appreciate and apologize whenever needed. 

Find your guy in a person who never breaks his promises to you, who would smile just to see your smile, who would love you for who you are and who would treat everyone equally despite of their social status. I love you and when you find someone who loves you a fraction of that, then never take him for granted. Relations are the most important treasure in this world. Handle them with uttermost care. Love others without jealousy, anger or grudges. If you don't like a person tell them on their face, but never behind them.

I won't say that I should be your best friend but I want you to be mine. I want to share up each and everything with you. I know one day you're gonna fly away chasing your dreams and life.... but if you think you need to come back for a while.... Don’t hesitate ...  I'll be there for you. Always.

Kid, I love you. Have started loving you when I, myself was a child.

You are my dream. :)

For a Beautiful Daughter and an Awesome Woman.

ME.

God Blez.