‘Dear
Zindagi’!
My dear
Zindagi … My dear life…
What a
beautiful mess you’re? What all you have taken me to? What all you have made me
endure?
But you
know what? I always loved you, even when I hated you. All these years we have
made so many infinite moments of smiles, tears, excitement, adventure, terror, fluttering
heart, tickling tummy and every emotions that’s ever discovered. From a
happy-go-lucky-girl to bold-stubborn to the present, you have taken me through everything.
12
years ago, I never for once thought at 27 this is how my life would be. At 15
when life looked so hopeful, filled with so much of promises, added with
confidence and anything to do attitude, I thought, Yes! This is life. This is
You. No tears, worries, losses, or anything bad. Then, it was all about aiming
for the stars.
But
down the lane, when I started to grow, I encountered everything. From good to
best, bad to worse, flickering heart to heart break. Those were the days when I
lost the love I had for you. And should say it lasted for long. There were
times I just wanted to leave you and run far away, but the love you had for me
was so strong that you never let me leave your side.
Those
happy teen years when everything was happening so routinely happy with been
everyone’s favorite to taking home good grades at the end of a decade. Then
college happened with new faces, new lessons, first love and twinkling eyes
between college fest and internals. Everything was so sure then. Couldn’t wait
to make all those plans into reality. There you caught me. Giving me that
absolute jerk like you were trying to wake me up from a trance. I literally saw
all my plans falling down as if they were a card castle. I blamed you for that.
Only you! But you pulled me near to you with a tight hug and taught me lessons I
had to learn. Lessons about failure, patience, sacrifice, endurance, kindness
and moreover filled my heart with a zest for you. For some time in the past I regretted for the
mistakes I have done, for not listening to my instincts but I realize it have
made me who I’m today. And I firmly believe that whatever you send my way is
for good.
At 15,
I exactly knew what I wanted at my 20s, 30s and so on. But at 27, I have no
idea what I want tomorrow. At 15 I thought you; life was so happy and colorful
like a rainbow. But now I realize, you are indeed a rainbow, and the different
colors portray the different emotions and experiences in life. And now at this moment, I may
not be where I wanted to be... I may not be happy with all the decisions I took...
I may not be having the job I dreamed of or the people I thought will be there.
But now
I know you’re all about the journey, the experiences, doing mistakes, letting go and
extending one hand to shake hands with new people yet holding the other one
with people from your yesterdays, dreaming about the stars and living the
untold journey. And I am happy doing that holding your hands.
Thank you, Zindagi.
I know there
are so much more of you for me, waiting eagerly for that.
Love,
S.
“I am
writing a letter to life for the #DearZindagi activity at BlogAdda“