She tells me that she liked what I used to write earlier more. She, the girl who lives a wall away from me. She, the girl who might be my most ardent follower. And she, the girl who'll never cease to be someone I want to appease.

But what I wrote earlier and even now, reeked of immaturity. It was made of similar sounding phrases and over-thought of rhyming words. I was a kid then. I like to believe I'm all grown up now and my words have more of an impact now, more depth, more meaning. But maybe she's right. She, the only girl I share with my soul. She, the one whose been a mother to me in more ways than one. And she, the one who tries so hard to understand this new me and the old me.

For she knew the kid me, probably even liked her. I was clear then, like fresh dew drops on grass. But as the day progresses, the dew gets a little paler by the moment before dissolving altogether. I dissolved. Into the bars of the rhymes that I hunted. Into the darkness of the night which was always so comforting. Into the beats of the music that get me through each day. Into the silence of my thoughts that keeps me awake till the dawn.

And still, she perseveres. Through every post and prose. Looking for that words which will be full of sunshine and rainbows. Scenting in every corner, the chance of a rhyme. Waiting through it all for the hint of a smile. Someday, someday I will make her smile. Someday I will make it worth her time. Someday she will approve. Someday, I will be worth.

Till then, I'll shuffle among my murky thoughts on my own, seeking I know not, which sort of clarity. For though the amateur writer in me shall live forever, seeking the purpose of birth, secrets of death and the silence of pain.

  

It hits me now that we're all replaceable in the end. Right down to the memories we create. Someone will come and just write all over them. So, I'll smile for I want you to be happy. And that tiny place in your world which is mine, shall stay mine, and I'll visit it, the same day, every year. Year after year. 

A-Z f My Favorites.

Alone – Some time for yourself is the best leisure one could afford.

Books & Beach – Both have qualified to be my best friends. They keep me energized when I am bored and in my mood swings.

Coffee & Chocolates - Anywhere, anytime... these two are the best indulgences that would never fail to bring a smile in my face. :)

Driving – I prefer driving alone. When I could blast out the songs, talk to myself, and just stare forwards. Someone dear to me once said that it’s when I drive that I am lost in thoughts. (Yea, I know that is not the quality of a good driver)

Earrings – Long, short, chunky, white, black, silver… whatever, if it looks good… then it’s mine. If it’s in yellow metal, if it’s in yellow metal, then preferably small ones.

Freedom & Friends –Life without freedom is equal to death. And life without friendship is equal to loneliness.

Girls Day Out – A day with all my  girl mates and then uploading all the freaky pics. That's definiely an happy day.

Happiness – To be happy in life. That’s my ultimate ambition.

Ice cream – Walk or a ride in a two wheeler with an ice cream when it drizzles. :D

Junk Jewelry’s – Earrings, bangles & bracelets!

Kids – They always makes this world the most beautiful.

Love – I love to be loved and to love.

Mobile – Who connects you so instantly to your FB, friends, mail, blog, take pics, serves as your journal , shows time, date, year and updates you with everything??

Night – Drive into the infinity of darkness. When I’m gonna get that wish of my fulfilled?

O - Oxygen!

Photographs - Photographs are memories. It is a way of feeling, of touching, of loving. What you have caught on film is captured forever... it remembers little things, long after you have forgotten everything

Quality Time - Some quality time with your near & dear ones is Priceless.

Rain - Rain makes everything better. When you're sad, you can cry in the rain. When you're happy, you can dance in the rain. And when you're in love, you can kiss in the rain.... 
Should i say more...??? ;)

Shoes :D - A girl can never own too many pairs of shoes. :P

Teddy Bears - A Teddy bear is a part of childhood innocence who could never wanna lose.

U - You! My love.

my Vehicles - In love with all my vehicles. Esp my bloody red i10. 

Winter - Cold, Cozy nights, warm blankets and hot chocolate. For all these there should be winter!

Xtra Goodness - Having an extra goodness in everything is always so good.

Y - Why? My favorite question. :D

Zzzzzzz - Sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep!!!!



P.S. Favorites makes a person.

God Blez.

Ramblings

When life gives you lemon, make lemonade and enjoy. But what to do when life offers you with both lemon and lemonade without any sugar? Does I make any sense?? No, na. Even I don't understand what 'm writing.

Senseless thoughts and purposeless  life. But life itself is a vacuum  It's you who fill it with whatever you like. Experiences, love, negativity or passion or whatever you wish to fill it up. Even when life has no purpose, there's a joy in loving someone so unconditionally and fully. The great learning our self gains when we give out to someone without expecting anything back. You will never get lost.  Because you love. In love, you grow. In love, you prosper. In love, you gain yourself. In love, you live.

Give people more than they expect and do it cheerfully.

Marry a man/woman you love to talk to. As you get older, their conversational skills will be as important as any other.

Don't believe all you hear, spend all you have or sleep all you want.

When you say, 'I love you,' mean it.

When you say, 'I'm sorry,' look the person in the eye.

Be engaged at least six months before you get married.

Believe in love at first sight.

Fight for your love.

Never laugh at anyone's dreams.
People who don't have dreams don't have much.

Love deeply and passionately.
You might get hurt but it's the only way to live life completely.

Trust your instincts.

In disagreements, fight fairly. No name calling.

Don't judge people by their relatives.

Talk slowly but think quickly.

Leap with faith for what you believe. 

Be a good listener.

When someone asks you a question you don't want to answer, smile and ask, 'Why do you want to know?'

Remember that great love and great achievements involve great risk.

Say 'bless you' when you hear someone sneeze.

Have atleast a Boy and a Girl in your best friends list.

When you lose, don't lose the lesson.

Be a friend who you wish to have.

Remember the three R's: Respect for self; Respect for others; and Responsibility for all your actions.

Don't let a little dispute injure a great friendship.

When you realize you've made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.

Smile when picking up the phone. The caller will hear it in your voice.

P.S. Stay Happy :)

God Blez.

Happy V-Day! :)

Dear girl reading this,

I hope you go to sleep with a smile on your face. No tears, no stress, no hurt, or pain. I hope you realize how amazing you are and someone out there or that someone that you're with notices that. Don't let anyone or anything bring you down, trust me its not worth it. You're beautiful, always remember that, and don’t let anyone tell you less. Close your eyes and think about all the things that make you happy, those are the things that really count and matter. Taken or not, always make sure you're truly happy and don't ever feel lonely, someone will take that loneliness away when the time is right. ♥

God Blez.

Happy Promise Day :) ;) :)

Happy Teddy's Day to all Sweethearts! :)

If life was like ...

In almost every movies, it's about happy endings. Even if there's so much of traumas in between it all conclude to a point where everyone gets what they want and everyone's smiling.

But in real life, why does it's not like a movie? Where we tackle whatever happens and come to a happy ending. Why in real it's always tears and sorrows and worries? I didn't mean to sound depressed, and obviously there are so much good things and happy and memorable moments in life. But when something good happens an unknown fear creeps into mind, thinking when's the next tears due. It's like, scared to smile.

If life was like a movie with only happy endings and smiles... ... ..

P.S. Just random ramblings.

God blez.

Time never stops.

“In three words I can sum up what I've learned about life: It goes on”, said by the famous Robert Frost. 

True! It goes on. Whatever happens time just don’t stop or wait or come back for anyone or anything. Whatever situation you may be in, happy, sad or extremely depressed… time just moves on. You may need a second chance to correct a mistake in the past, but time just moved on. People next to you may stop been with you, or they tend to stop in between but time won’t.

P.S. Time never stops, it only feels that way. You grow older, moments pass, lessons are learned, your life, and life continues on.

God Blez.

Death is nothing at all.
I have only slipped away into the next room.
I am I and you are you.
Whatever we were to each other,
that we still are.

Call me by my old familiar name.
Speak to me in the easy way
which you always used.
Put no difference in your tone.
Wear no forced air of solemnity or sorrow.

Laugh as we always laughed
at the little jokes we enjoyed together.
Play, smile, think of me, pray for me.
Let my name be ever the household word
that it always was.
Let it be spoken without affect,
without the trace of a shadow on it.

Life means all that it ever meant.
It is the same that it ever was.
There is absolutely unbroken continuity.
Why should I be out of mind
because I am out of sight?

I am waiting for you,
for an interval,
somewhere very near,
just around the corner.

All is well.



- Anonymous 



P.S. Long Live!

God Blez.

Wordless...

Ramblings.

I don't know what’s going on these days with me. There don’t seem to have much to scribble down. I generally pen down my thoughts what I feel, when I have emotional breakdown, When I go through a rush of feelings, I mean I write whatever I feel ,What’s going within me, sometimes, I couldn't do that also, because I am inexpressive with a lot of thoughts, feelings. But these days, I have become so dry, I mean, I don't know… … … 

I am Stressed. I am tensed. I am worried. I don't know what all I’m carrying at the back of my mind and day by day it’s getting suppressed. Wish I could put all my thoughts in a jar. I think too much. It causes me to over-think and analyze things I don't want to deal with. It gets too much for me to handle and I panic. I shut myself down and go to war with myself. I'm tired. I'm sick. I'm tired of being sick. I'm sick of being tired. I'm sick of feeling sad. Sick of wanting things and people I can't have. I don't like who I am, but I have to live with it. I don't know what I'm doing. I don't know where I'm going in life. For once, I just want to be at peace with myself.

P.S. Hail to my insane thoughts.
God Blez.