As a person I love myself so much. Like Kareena Kapoor says in Jab We Met, "My favourite is me itself".
But no human being is perfect. And I accept that wholeheartedly. I believe that no one is white or black but is a shade of gray. Even when I prefer myself over anyone else there are certain things I wish to change in me.
1. Be more assertive: Telling No to a person is a big heartache for me. If it's a stranger 'm ok, but not to a dear one.
2. To able to play along the middle: I am one extreme individual. Nothings in the middle for me. Either this end or the other. If I love a person then I would give anything or everything and if I hate then there's no one with more worse attitude than me. Actually hate is a pretty strong word. I won't hate, I would just ignore him/her from my life for long.
3. Mood swings: I have one of the worst mood swings you have and will ever see.One second I'll be happy go lucky girl, the next I'll be that rotten cranky female. Once a friend commented that a chameleon is much better than me, coz we can predict the color it will adapt according to it's surrounding but I am not even that predictable. ;)
4. Stubbornness: I usually don't budge from my opinions and decisions. And at times that hurts people.
5. Visualise the future: I am never bothered about my tomorrows. I live the moment. If someone asks me about my plans for the next day, my reply would be, "let's see if tomorrow comes". Don't take me as a pessimist, I am tagged as the biggest optimist ever by my peers.
6. Extrovert in expressing myself: I am an introvert when it comes to express my feelings or problems. I share my happiness with others but my dark moments are for myself.
7. To able to cry: To cry without any inhibitions or unconcerned about the people around me is my biggest dream. Except for my immediate family only one or two friends have seen, no heard me crying through phone.
So that was my "I wish I could change..." behaviours of mine. What's yours, if any?
This is my third post written for the Write Tribe Festival of Words.