#Metoo

She could smell payasam here at her room

“Amu, take this and give this to him”

Her mother called.

After that I can have too,  she thought 

She dashed to the kitchen 

Singing, she jumped each stair to him

He opened the door swiftly, as if 

 Waiting for her to ring the bell

She gave him the dish, which he took 

And called her inside, which she did

She stood there and looked around

Same as her flat, but hers was prettier

She smiled 

And turned to leave

But to a closed door

He stood near her, very near

Without giving space to breathe


"BREATH"

"SCREAM"

"MOM"

She ran down five minutes later

Scrubbed and rinsed from head to toe 

Tearing her lips and cheeks ...

“Amu, come and have payasam”

Her mother called.

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20 years later, Amu shed tears for that 9-year-old who met a monster while typing #Metoo  

I’m participating in the Write Tribe Problogger October 2017 Blogging Challenge through October. #WriteBravely

Today’s Prompt – “Monster.”

Extra can make you Extraordinary. - #E

Dear Daughter,

Have you ever noticed how the word Extra or Free on anything just brings a smile on to our face? When you get three chocolates at the price of two or 20% chips or buy one get one free promos, you feel as if your trip to the supermarket was just worth it.

Now think, what wonders an “Extra” can do in your life? An extra mile in your walk, an extra step towards your dreams, an extra ear for those who want to talk, an extra hug for those in despair, some extra time for those in need… you can be extraordinary because the difference between ordinary and extraordinary is that little extra.

There will many times when you would have done everything to excel in a job or studies or reaching your goal and yet failed to see the result and thinking of quitting the whole thing. But before you do that, just put one last extra step towards your goal. I am sure you’ll see amazing results. Because most of the times we give up before few miles to our destination. Never do that.

More than all this, I want you to go an extra mile in your relations with others. There are so many people in this world who’s suffering alone. You don’t have to travel around the world looking for them. Mostly they will be people around you, your near ones, acquaintances, colleagues, that stranger sitting next to you in metro or subway. It can be anyone.

Some years ago, I and my friends organized a summer camp for teenagers. And on its one year anniversary we were planning a reunion but it didn’t happen, because we couldn’t find time in our schedule. A week after that, heard a boy in that gang committed suicide because he didn’t clear some papers in his first year Engineering semester exam. And till date I feel guilty about it. I keep thinking, if we took that extra effort to do that reunion, or just called and talked to everyone or kept had personal contact he would have been still alive. If someone anyone had some extra time to console him or give him support or talk to him and make him understand that life is not all about the mere things we encounter daily but it's all about the people that are around us, the people that love us for who we are. Sometimes all a person wants is an empathetic ear, all he or she needs is to talk it out. Just offering a listening ear and an understanding heart for his or her suffering can be a big comfort.

So my child understand that,

Words are strong. Hugs are assuring. Listening is comforting. Been just there for someone can be life changing. Because all these can overwhelm what we fear when fear seems more awful than life is good.

Yours,

Me. 

I'm Participating in the #AtoZAprilChallenge with the theme .... 

“Letters to Dear Daughter… “

Caught red-handed

"Amu! Did you take those chocolates I had kept for your cousins?"

"No Mom, how would I do that especially when you asked me not to touch them?" Amu made an innocent face.

Thou her innocent eyes sided with her words, the chocolate smeared on her face told another story.

Linking this to BAR-A-THON by Blog-A-Rhythm Day 4 Prompt – Caught red-handed

D for ... #AtoZChallenge2016

"Dear Daughter ..."

Hey Gorgeous,

I love writing to you. I have written so many mails and letters to you in the past too. Some in my mind and some verbally too. I started loving and thinking about you even before you were born. Even before you were conceived. Even before your existence was thought of. Or even before I started the chapter Reproductive System in school! Somehow one day you were born in my mind, and from then you are special to me. 

I still don’t know why I’m writing to you. Maybe with years and age my perspective of life might change, and I may not be able to share this me with you then. Or maybe I just want to be with you like this. 

Here in this previous letter I have said many things which I wanted to you do and follow. And today I’m telling you just one thing.  

Be yourself. Always!

Nothing else. 

Whatever happens in life, never compromise yourself and your happiness for anything and anyone. There may come a day when you consider the happiness of the people around you more than yours, but just remember it’s just for the time being. It’s you who matters. If you’re miserable you surely can’t make anyone else happy or content. So just be yourself and live your life the way you want. 

Stay happy always. 

For a Beautiful Daughter and an Awesome Woman.

I love you forever.

From,

ME.

Allow Them To Live their Life.

A young man ended his life, because he couldn’t cope up with the pressure his studies demanded. He was a writer by heart. But his father wanted him to be an IITian, which he became. But not for long. And even now, his father lives in agony for his loss. Another girl, wanted to be a pilot, she dreamed about flying, and exploring new places. But she ended up in a Med School. After two years in school, she was admitted in the psychiatry department for severe depression.

“Follow your heart.” … something we often hear from all the successful people. But are we actually letting our children to follow their own dreams.  Yes, a percentage is… but majority are not. I am an engineer, by chance. And should say I never hated another profession the way I hate this one. And I have worked only less than a year in it. After that I couldn’t take it anymore. Not saying that it’s not a good profession, but I am not a good engineer. I believe engineering is the backbone of the world. And you should be passionate enough to be in that, which I am not. 

Every time when a parent decides something in their child’s life, one sentence they never fail to say is, “This is for your own good. I want you to have a good life.” But when are they going to understand that for a good life, happiness is the most important thing. I don’t believe that money can bring happiness. And if you’re not happy with your work, your work doesn’t even bring you the money or fame you deserve.

There are travelers now, who earn their bread and butter just through travelling the world and living their dream. But does any parent accept that as a profession. No! We have to fight for that, go against their wishes and show that this can be a dream job. And then they might give us a good smile. But why so much hungama? You gave birth to them, you bought them up, and you taught all the good things, to choose what is right and understand what is wrong. If you have complete faith in your upbringing or in your child, let him follow his heart. He may make mistakes, but he’ll learn from that. He might fall down trying, but he’ll get up again. But he will be happy doing this. At the end of the day he’ll be satisfied with the work and life he has and every morning he’ll be pleased to do the same.

There are people who are all ready to follow the crowd, but there are other people who want to make their own path. Let them do that. Just don’t hold them back to follow the everyday crowd. In the long run, these rebels will make everyone proud.  

Hey Baby...

How can a little baby who’s so tiny, that we actually hesitate even to touch him, wondering whether it would hurt him or make him uncomfortable, can be the center of everyone’s life all of a sudden?

Yesterday, I and a friend went to see another friend of us. And when we entered her room, next to her was lying a small bundle with just a tiny handsome rosy face peeping out. His face just made the time stand still and feel as if the world is so beautiful and made me think why we never thought before, that this little guy would be part of our gang sooner or later. Whenever we visit her, we used to buy her flowers and chocolates, that been her favorite, but yesterday we were thinking what are we going to get for the baby love.

I meet her the day I stepped inside my boarding school. Parents  been at the same country, added to our advantage and then and there started our friendship. Now after 15 years, I’m aunt to her baby boy. Awe… Life! Before I looked forward to meet her, but now I can’t wait to see the baby again.

Definitely children add so much beauty to our relations and to this very world. 

What you say?

Two sides of a Coin

She had no other way than letting go off her child. Been unmarried, young and with a good future awaiting her, she can’t let a single mistake from her side to jeopardize her life and moreover her parents name and fame in the society. More than herself she was concerned about the humiliation her parents would have to face if anyone comes to know about the child of their daughter out of wedlock. The mere thought of this is what made her agree to give away her little one when the social worker in the hospital suggested her to give the baby for adoption. Except for the initial touch of her child she didn’t had any contact with him. Thou heart wrenching she saw her baby been carried away from her, who was completely unaware of what’s happening with him.

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She and her husband had been waiting all their life for this. After bearing the agony for so many years of trying to have a child and miscarriages, this was a moment that was going to change their life forever and for good. They had been walking in and out of orphanages and foster homes to adopt a child. But something or the other always goes wrong and they were left disappointed each time. But today, everything fell in place and they were actually going to be parents to a baby. A baby with light brown eyes, jet black hair and a smile on his lips even when he’s sleeping. They were holding a baby boy which was going to be their own son in a few hours. The child she waited all this years to give birth and hold close to her bosom.

A is for ...

April Fool!

Married to the love of her life, having her dream job, beautiful friends and a happy life, she was living her life to the fullest, until the moment she realized that becoming a mom was not going to be easy for her. She firmly believed that only a child can complete a woman. So after years of treatment and prayers when the doctor and now a friend, said that she was pregnant, she felt alive again.

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"Can I see my child?" .... gaining conscious from her sleep after delivery she asked the doctor. The doctor stood rooted to the ground without knowing how to tell her that the child she waited all these years turned out to be a stillborn... an April fool prank from the universe.

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This post is part of Blogging from A to Z in April 2014. And this month is all about sticking together, and spreading as much love as possible. So with me, do visit Aditi Kaushiva, Amrit Rukhaiyaar, Amy Griffith, Ananya & Anuprabha Venugopal and show them your love and support. :)

A full lived life!

My Grandmom (from mom's side) died yesterday morning at around 12 am IST. She was 85 years old.

And according to me she lead a full life. She had a beautiful martial life with her handsome husband with loads of love, laughter, fights and so much of hard works. She is survived by 4 kids out of 6, their spouses, 17 grandchildren and 7 great grand kids. Wow! I just love my family.

She was such a strong person with a beautiful and such a charming personality. And an awesome cook. She was a warm person with a kind heart and an enchanting smile. Even thou I was not so close to her, I was very fond of her. She always gave me that absolute "Grandma" feeling.

When heard that she's no more... there was a lost feeling, even thou it was expected. But the reality of her physical form gone, along with her voice, her presence and her warmth, everything just vanished with her. Also the trace of a whole generation.

I always loved that family reunion moments. When we meet the people that was meant only for us, the people who's insanity do match us and makes us feel a little less weird for been the way we are, the people with which we feel so connected and rejuvenated the instant we lay our eyes on them, the moment our "mature parents" starts behaving like kids along with their siblings. I just love all those memories. For all this, thanks of my Grandma. Coz, without her none of us might have been born. 

I will miss her. But I guess my mom and her siblings just felt as if a part of their life just vanished along with their Mom. Her mom! Yea, she too had a mom like me. She too was a child once, and she too have clinged to her many times. And losing your threshold forever is a tremendous loss. And this made me think about how I will also loss my mom once and how my kids will loss their's. Guess its's a never ending process of life.

P.S. No-one can take a Mom's place. 

God Blez.

PARI

Sharing a Blogpost from another blog, My Little World, which I am completely in love with...



PARI … (Angel)

"Why are you doing this when you can have your own?",Mom asked furiously,almost in tears.

"Atleast think about the society.They will raise so many questions to you and your parents.They'll doubt your...",an acquaintance was trying hard to convince.

"You people are hurting your parents.They had so many aspirations from you.Don't you have any obligations towards them?", another fellow added.

"Apna khoon apna hi hota hai.No one else can take his place.Do whatever you want!",Papa asserted loudly and left the room.

But the couple was adamant to their decision.Nothing in the world could bent them.

They said "Sorry Ma,Sorry Paa.But we are really not bothered what others would think of us.We are not doing anything wrong.And If you want we'll have our own too.But this has to be done.Today and Now.We have promised her."

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They took the keys and hurried to the place.

"Hello sister!"

"Hello Sir.Hello Ma'am.All formalities have been done.You just have to sign here.",the matron said.

"Yeah.we'll just do."

"Congratulations to both of you.God bless you people."

"Thank you sister!"

They both looked at each other.Happiness,love,contentment and proud tinged vividly in their eyes.They distributed sweets to everyone out there.

He kissed her on her forehead for the very first time and hugged her tight.(Ah!Truly Divine. An awesome feeling).

The three of them then headed towards the temple on the opposite side of the road, to seek blessings of the Almighty.

The papers on the dashboard of the car were gleaming brightly on that full moon night.They read,

"St. Anthony Girls Orphanage

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Child's Name:PARI

Age:2 yrs ,6 months

Sex: Female

Adopted by:

Mrs and Mr.............

on 6'Feb'2011"

 

And on the backseat were kept a teddy-bear,a doll in pink,a toy train,a remote control car,a big box of chocolates and toffees,small little pair of shoes,few packets from 'Kids Wear' shop etc etc.
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Once in school ,a friend asked "What does it mean to be adopted?"

"It means",said Pari "that you grew in your mommy's heart instead of her tummy :)"


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P.S. All credits and Respects to Saumya, the creator of these words.

God Blez.