For You ... A letter.

Dear You,

One thing leads to another. One month leads to another. And one year led to eighth. Times flies yet makes us realize that indeed it’s a complicated journey.

There are times I wonder, why you left so fast. Why you didn’t stay back to make more memories? You know what I miss about us the most? The opportunity to get to know each other better.

We were just acquaintances when we interrupted each other’s life with so much of power. But I would have loved to experience many phases of that. I wish we had the time to grow up together.

Some nights when sleep fails to embrace me, my thoughts sail to you. And suddenly a fear grips me.

What if I forget you one day?

What if I won’t be able to remember your face, the glint in your eyes or that smirk you have? 

What if, one day when I try to draw your face in my mind, I fail? 

What if the memories start to dribble out of my memory while I desperately try to hold them?

There are days and moments when I miss you so much that make me wonder how I kept going till date without you in life. But that's how life turns out to be. You'll miss people who're important to you; you just have to live without souls whom you don't want to leave... You'll have to learn to survive without the presence of those whom you always wanted in your life.

But some days are gloomier than the rest and some nights darker than yesterdays. Some moments lonelier than the previous...  And I just miss you so much at this moment than the rest, especially when today marks the eighth year of your leaving.  

I wish ...

… If only, one day I would wake up from a deep slumber and realize all these years were just dreams, very bad dreams …

… Just a wishful thinking …

Me.

P.S. Today is the eighth year of demise of a dear soul, M. Over the years I have written so many letters to him in the space and otherwise. Even when we, his friends and family miss him dearly, we all are so grateful for his presence in our family. 

                                I am taking part in The Write Tribe Festival of Words #6

The One That Got Away

If I say “I miss you" that would be an understatement.

I miss the fact that you're missing life and the things that might have happened in your life.

I miss seeing your face pop up in my social media.

I miss your existence.

And that sneaks hatred into me.

I hate that you would remain ageless when the world beneath you grows old.

I hate to see the world moving on without you, and there's absolutely no chaos in that.

I hate the conversations where I get to listen nothing.

I hate the mornings when I feel grumpy missing your physical being

I hate the nights when I miss your warmth.

I hate that you haunts me every day without my permission.

I hate that you got away from me.

All because …

I miss you. 

Linking this to #FridayReflections 

Simple happy blessings...

The most unpredictable thing in this world is life. It moves on with its ups and down. One day it can be a boring routine. And the next minute, an exciting roller-coaster. And there are those moments, when we get those unexpected pleasant moments, which gives us a happy surprise. Those moments when you feel blessed, happy and even special. Those serendipity moments are the best. I had so much of such moments in my life. Love showed up in my doorway in a similar way. Wishes and blesses came to me like happy surprises.

Long before I lost a friend to death, and there are some moments when I miss that person like so much. Before it goes on for long, I’ll get a call from one of our mutual friends, or someone from that person’s side or hear that one song we both like. For me those are serendipitous blessings.

That one moment when you are all ready to fight the villain thinking you are alone but when turned back you see all of your family standing beside. It was indeed a moment of serendipity for me.

When in college we were a gang of six girls. We laughed, learned, ate and even fought together. There was even a period when we ignored a single one out of the five just because we were stupid. But years down the lane, when the college girls turned to young adults, we learned to forgive and let go of all the past and regain the magic of friendship. Now tomorrow she’s getting married. And that too, to the man boy (still a boy, looks like one too) who never gave up a chance to irritate any one of us, yet proved to be one reliable and strong personality. For me to share her happiness is a serendipitous blessing.  

Life is full of such accidental happy incidents. Appreciate them and make the most of those tiny moments.

P.S. To my friend who’s starting a new life tomorrow after waiting for years… You’re going to get so many of such blessed serendipitous moments all throughout your life. Make sure you identify them and cherish them and live those happy moments with so much joy. And be always beautiful inside and out. Stay happy and blessed always. 

Linking this post to BlogChatter’s prompt for the week.

If Only ...

She woke up with a heavy heart today. As if her heart was weighing her down with so much of sadness. While she was wondering what might have happened for her to feel so lost, her phone beeped nudging her to remember today’s date and the impact it’s having on her for years.

Thou her brain knowingly tries to shut down and ignore “today”, her heart was far ahead. As always she opened the FB page which she has created and dedicated for him.  Thou she hated to post anything there, because of its lack of privacy and personal touch, she wanted that page to be active like him, wanted people not to forget him and remember with the same intensity like before.

“Loved, missed and remembered … Always.” …

She typed and after a thought …

“ … If only, one day I would wake up from a deep slumber and realize all these years were just dreams, very bad dreams …

… Just a wishful thinking …”

She added. 

Linking this to BAR-A-THON by Blog-A-Rhythm Day 6 Prompt – Wishful thinking

Dear M,

This is my first open letter to you in all these years. Don't know what made me write this. Maybe the feeling of 'lemme get it out there' or arrogantly opening up myself in my own public space.

Actually how's you up there? I have written to you numerous times and I know you have obviously read all those. Who knows u better? 

It's going to be five years since we met and four since you went. I read somewhere that it's always proper to use death or died than using insinuations for it. Even I prefer the same in my case. But till date, with all these years behind I couldn't bring myself into saying so, but 'm going to try doing so from now on.

After you died, I admit that I felt terrible, in fact destroyed. You just died off like that even without a warning sign and it was a hard core hit right on the face. I became quite than ever, but came out from that sulken face too damn fast. Life did move on, but felt like some automated version. Nothing made sense esp when had to encounter those huge photographs of yours in and around the campus. It felt like you were all around the place when you were actually just an  alumni till yesterday. And I never knew you had soo much of female fan followers..... I admit 'm jealous. Big Deal!

I gave up soo much I loved, esp the relation I had with God. I felt so betrayed and cheated, I couldn't even look at their faces. But now I know that if it wasn't for God, I could have missed knowing you. Through you I got an awesome second family who I could rely upon anything and a sister who's soo much like a lil one.

I am sorry for those nights I cried to sleep. But I did hold up in front of others esp when was with your aunt and sis. And thanks for all those random conversations we had and those I imagined up in my head and dreams. And thanks for letting us know that you are still watching all of us from there and no one is spared from your looks. ;)

Life is going on. Actually nothing have changed much except the vaccum feeling  at times I get deep down when I think that you are no more visibly here. Or the insanity when my mind stubbornly wants to talk to you. It was not easy to adjust with you dieing. But now I'm dealing with it far better, but it took me such a period.

You may not be here physically. But the moments we shared and the moments you gave others is definitely here. And that's one reason you are still missed and loved even more even now.

In between you had to call K too. I know, you might been getting bored there and other than that nut case who's the better option.

I still miss you, in fact both of you guys. But everyone's doing every possible big and little acts to keep you peoples' spirit alive. So it's like you both are still living invisibly between us and no one is ready to let you go.

You taught me to appreciate small small things in life and to be happy for the moment. So, in every moments you're remembered. I love you loads and will do forever. You are that chapter in my life that I reread always. And this is not something written out of despair but I just want you to be here in this space of mine. And going to do this more often.

Till the next letter loads of love and hugs.

P.S. Stop been the naughty guy there too. And if you ever come across Saddam Hussain, tell I'm great fan of his. (Ok. I'm done with my fan worship. Now stop rolling your eyes. :P)

Take care

Me.

Their day of Love.

Beachside, full moon, candle light dinner, champagne, dozens of red roses, loads of chocolates, her romantic hero in a Shah Rukh Khan like tuxedo at her command,  making her feel like a Princess ..... ..... awe... that was supposed to be her dream date. 

But in reality something else happened.

Years before, if she had to describe herself, she would have pointed to Anjali (Kajol) of Kuch kuch hota hai. Tomboy, talkative, adamant, never missed a chance to get into her cosy jeans type, male friends dominated the friend list and remotely expressive.

So when many of her friends were falling heads over heels in love with their soul mates she declared herself immune to this love disease. But as always, whenever she  thinks of something, God comes up with just the opposite with a smirk on his face. With a wicked smile he pushed a button on his most sophisticated gadget, and there appears a man out of blue into her life. Huh!

It was time when FB was yet to gain popularity and Orkut was booming. She met her Mr. Man through that, but in few seconds came to know that he was her senior. Gosh! Ragging! That was her first thought. But thanks to her lucky stars, she never got a chance to meet him on campus. Even thou he was heading the anti ragging team, he got a notorious looking gang of friends. The mere sight of any of them could increase her gangs BP!

Their first chat never had any inhibitions or what-to-say-next dilemma. In fact it was very easy going as they had so much to gossip about their own college and department. And when they said bye and logged off for the night she knew this guy was going to cause her some sleepless nights. And before she could take it all, they were in love!

She shared this change of her relationship status with her friends. First, they won't believe that "She" was in a relation, second, that too with a person she haven't met even once. And to her surprise everyone in her gang have seen him in campus except for her. But by then he was already out of college and even out of the country.

After one month of their technology enhanced relation, they finally met in person. The day they met in real for the first time was actually weird. They knew each other so well, but still were strangers. She was nervous but with a bold face. Seeing him there right in front of her, made her realise that she was actually in love with this human being. She didn't hear any church bells ringing, or any signs like in a Nicholas Sparks or Nora Roberts book.

They had their happy moments and cat fights too. He got possessive at the mention of her male friends. And she disapproved of his social circle. Above all the distance was also taking a toll on them. They knew they had separate lifes now and if needed a future together, they should  have to make it work now, and they were determined to do so. But she was having second thoughts. "Am I with the wrong person? Was this relation something out of my impulsiveness?" But still he felt real. She decided to follow her heart. What if he turns out to be her soulmate? 

One Saturday morning when she was lazily enjoying her weekend, her phone rang. To her utter most delight it was Mr. Man from the airport. He was in town for two days. She was too surprised and happy to question.

Next day they decided to met. And he came with his sisters. He wanted a green signal from them. If its a No from the little ones... then that's a serious issue they have to deal with. But that was one thing she initially liked about him. He was a  devoted family person. Perfect son and brother. 

Sisters time turned out to be fun and after dropping them home they went for shopping. Before that, knowing that she was a bibliophile, he took her to the book expo that was happening there and allowed her to drool all over the books and even bought her some, which gained him extra points. Then they went to a near by park. All of a sudden he became so serious and philosophical about life and relationships.

"My sisters loved you"... he told.

"So is this happiness and talks cos of that. .."

"Maybe... and I bought you something..."

"Huh! Another book?... "

"Seriously don't you have any other obsession other than this?..."

When she grinned sheepishly to that, he opened a small box and took out a ring! A thin golden band with a small heart in the middle.

Wow! Her heart started fluttering.

But she was too numb to say anything.

And her mind was freaking out. "God! He's not going to ask me to marry him. Aren't we too early for that... I am not even out of college... no... don't let him..."

Sensing her fear and uneasiness he said,  "Don't give me that look. I will ask you to marry me, but not now. Come on. I am not that stupid. But when its the right time 'm just going to do that. Then don't stare at me like this. I wanted to gift you something. So why not this?".

She looked at him dumbstruck.

"You are precious to me, no matter how much we fight or tear each other or despite the distance between us. If ever you get any doubts about us, this will always remind you of our happy moments together. And... you can even consider this as a pre-marriage-proposal.... if you want... but I hope this will erase your thoughts and doubts about us."

She was confused. She never told him anything that was in her mind. And she asked the same to him."How do you know all that was going through my head?"

He smiled .... "Do you think that I can't read you? I know you better than you know yourself."

With that and a wink he gave her the ring of their love which was made of hope and promises for a lifetime.

That moment made her realise that, in every girl's love story there's a bit of fairy tale and once in a while her man turns to Prince Charming and sweeps her off her feet. And that was her moment, when he came just to ensure her about them and to tell her that she was his future, no matter what.

Even thou, as time passed and many more happier moments followed, that was her fairy tale moment of bliss and Platinum day of love. It just gave her strength to follow her heart confident and grow more in love.

Even now she clutches that gold band strongly when she needs a pinch of hope. 

........... .......... .............

Linking this to the Platinum day of love contest by Indiblogger.

My favourite Friend.

Seventh and the last day of Festival of Words. It was truly a festival with lots and lots of words, stories, personal experiences, excitement and happiness.

Glad I took part in this and get to meet so many more bloggers. Thanks to Corinne and to all the brains and imagination behind this.

Today for my last post of this series I am taking inspiration from Richa's theme, "Seven things about the first person I get to see each morning". If you haven't yet been to her space.... just rush! :)

But here it's not the first person I saw today, but about a person who influenced me years before and still doing.

Midhun aka MRM aka M.

1. A 6 feet (somewhere near) macho man. An athlete. You can't just ignore his presence. If he's somewhere near, then he'll definitely hit your eyes.

2. A person with immense love for his family and friends and who don't hesitate in showing that. He made sure everyone knew that family and friends are his first priority. And he's extremely possessive about them.

3. No permanent rivalry with anyone. He would be your enemy this moment, but if you are in need, he will be the first person to give his hand.

4. He's the one person who taught me to find happiness in small things. If one feels happy only when something great happens, then he'll have to wait long for that, but when one finds happiness in small small things, then he'll be always happy. 

5. A lover of branded stuffs, right from sunglasses to cars. And he's always impeccably dressed and should say he got great sense in choosing his and others (which includes women too) attire.

6. He's a females person. Chic magnet!!! (as Richa describes one of her friend). He's just too good with words and the way he talks. And the best part is no girls will feel offended talking to him. He got great Respect for women.

7. We used to fight a lot through phone as we were seas apart. As am a very stubborn female,  it doesn't take much time for his patience level to reach the peak point. And if you thought he will blast out, never! He, in his most sweet, calm, ever loving tone will say "Bye... take care... talk to you tomorrow"... and just disconnects the call. Grrrrr... that's the way he expresses his anger. 

Thank God for that. Or else we would have killed each other a zillion times by now.

He's not perfect. But I call him the 'Imperfectly Perfect Man'.

He left this world Four years ago. But the strength with much he is remembered by all of us, even now just surprises me. I have seen many people near and far pass away, but this is one is still living more strongly each day through his dear ones. It's like his friends and family near lets anyone forget that he was here among us and still is...

Recently I talked to a mutual friend of ours. He said he still couldn't accept the fact that M was gone. Even thou it's years since he's gone, the vaccum he left is still the same. Guess that was the power of the life he led and his love for others.

We all think about life after death at one point or the other. But, I wish to live in the hearts of my dear ones like he lives now and forever.

This is my Seventh post to Write Tribe Festival of Words.

Tring Tring...

Tring tring... the phone rang...

It might be him. "Gosh! I can't stop the scooty in the middle of the road to attend the call."... She thought.

She was supposed to meet him before one hour, but at the last moment some guests came and jeopardised her plans and she got stuck. And when she informed him that she'll be late by one hour he was not that happy. He never liked changes in plans.

And now she's on her way to him.

He might have reached and would be fuming impatiently coz of her delay. She grinned to herself imagining his face.

She stopped to the side of the road and checked the missed calls. Yea, it was him! She dialed his number and waited.

"Hello"...  A strange voice.
"Huh.....hello... who's this? "
"I am the police officer from the local station. The owner of this mobile met with a car accident and is taken to the medical hospital".....

She felt as if life just flew out of her body. Numbness crept through her. When she regained her composure she hurried towards the hospital, praying that nothing wrong should happen and all her wild thoughts should remain as thoughts itself............



(This post is part of Write Over the Weekend, an initiative for Indian Bloggers by BlogAdda)

And this post got picked by BlogAdda.com as one of  the "WOW" post of the Week.

And Bhavya.... Thank you ;) 

Day 5 - May Challenge 2013

This post is part of BEDMC.

Day 5, Sunday: Publicly profess your love and devotion for one of your blogger friends. What makes them great? Why do you love them? If you don't have a blogger friend, talk about a real life friend or a family member? 

Here 'm choosing a real life friend. 

M, 

I love you for who you are and what you are. 
I admire you for the person you are to your dear ones. 
I am passionate about your love for your people. 
And I wish upon all the stars, that there would be more people like you. 

Just love you. 



God Blez.

I for ... ...

2nd week and 9th week of the Challenge.

And I am opting for the word " IF "

Ok. Now this is a weird topic... just an illusion that came in my mind...

If Heaven had Facebook or any other communicating network...???

If Heaven had Facebook and all the new technologies of communication.... mmmh.... nope, at least any means of communication. How good it would have been if heaven was just another place, but far from earth.... and we could visit each other anytime we want..... But nope! .... Heaven/death is that entity that just snatches u out from your people... that’s one thing i hate about death. Esp. when there’s so many of your dear ones up there.

Why can’t Heaven be another place up above the skies or the outer space or something? Restrictions can be made, like no seeing or visiting each world but still can communicate with each other. There should be a telecom company exclusively having a network between heaven and earth. Wi-Fi should also be made available. The people who are in earth can pay the credits. See? How simple and realistic!

It would have been so awesome if this turned out to be a reality. Imagine, talking to those people in real when you made yourself believe that they left you for dead. You could share your life with them as before, you will still have each other in your life with some geographical or spatial or whatever distance it is. But still you get a feeling of them been alive in some far off place. You don’t have to worry whether they are happy, lonely or well, coz you could just call/text/mail them and ask. You don’t have to depend upon signs when you want to know their opinion coz they are just a call away. You don’t have to face a R.I.P* engraved tomb every time you wanna be near them.

So, if only Heaven was just another place which was not soo bloody unreachable!!!!!!!!!!

P.S. Do you think I am Insane??

God Blez.

*I personally HATEEE the “R.I.P” phrase!

Moments makes happy Memories.

Small small things make you happy and leave a smile on your face!

A book as a gift from a friend, unexpected visit of another one at work, "Miss you" message from the least expected ... all these make my day. And I appreciate every small things that makes me smile, even if it's just for an instant. But, not until recently.

There was a time, when someone did all the insane things just to see me smiling, and even when I know the trouble he took for that, I never expressed my appreciation. It's not that I was not happy and grateful for what he did, but it never occurred to me, that, expressing it might have made him smile too.

At times I wonder why you came to my life for such a short time ... but guess it was to let me understand that these small things make life beautiful.

Appreciate what you have before it's gone. What you have today might not be yours tomorrow. - Anonymous

P.S. I miss you and I appreciate every word, deeds, silence, smiles, happiness and love you gave me.


God Blez.

Miss you. Always.

Three years.!!!!

Three years of stillness. Soo much have changed... right from the surroundings to people to life itself. But the vaccum you left in us, remains the same... even at the moment.

The intensity of missing you got deeper as years went, but never any less. No days pass by without wishing you to be here.

Just.......... Tak care.

Love you.
God Blez.




P.S.On your Third year in heaven !!!

Knock Knock

August is always a month of terror for me. It was in this month i lost a dear one. For me it’s always about how much i wish him to be here... But at the moment want to jot down about him...

Just him.

He came into my life just like that. Without invitation, without warning or even without knocking.

One most beautiful thing M and I share is our Birth date. Being pretty obsessed with that date it was like an extra bonus to us. And, our favorite song is also the same, apart from the Campus. Subject we studied. Place we are from. Coffee. Beach. Sea foods. Night rides. Etc... 

Actually. similarities didn't find us, we found them.  

He is a person who genuinely loves his parents, adores his sisters, who would die for his friends, who respect women, die hard animal lover, have concern for the less fortunate, who behaves really well to those who waits at tables in restaurants, who doesn’t hesitate to say sorry, who is not embarrassed to let his tears flow, who admits his mistakes, who would try his best to keep promises and soo much of a lovable persona.

He’s actually one guy I have seen who would do anything under the sun for his loved ones. He would travel from across the sea just to see you. Could go to any extreme just for a Smile on your face. He’s a person who values even the minute happiness or moments. And who gets happy and sad for small small things. 

An athlete by passion and a business man by profession. He likes to read long mails and personal messages in cards. He's Brand cautious. Love bright colors. He would laugh his head off for the silliest and keeps a straight face for the funniest.

He also have a heck of attitude, adamant like a kid, with a pinch of arrogance added to stubbornness, anger at the tip of his nose, soo much of possessiveness which makes you feel special , soo powerfully strong and too bold. A misnomer!

I would say,  A good example for an Imperfectly Perfect Man.

P.S.  Miss hearing from You.

P.S.S. 'Present tense' makes happy endings.

P.S.S.S.  Keep Smiling.

God Blez.

OUR day !!!

JUNE 16!!! Yesterday it's been 23 years since i stepped on this earth.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME !!!!

Four years back i met someone unexpectedly who shares the same birthday with me. We became close and promised each other to celebrate not just the b'thdays but the future together. But we couldn't make it that year as we were on two different countries of the same continent. But we made it up by wishing each other @ 12 on dot. But two months after that he just vanished to a place beyond my reach... a place from where noone came back ever... a place to where no one can go until he's called.

This is the 3rd June after he went. Every day, every hour n every sec i wish to be waken up from a dream to your voice... but that still remains as a dream itself.

But i still celebrate every day with you itself... my mornings... my happiness... smiles... tears... everything !!! So this birthday is also celebrated with you.... every sec.

Many Many happy returns of OUR special day.

U were missed sooo very much.... and no words can describe that.




...

Wish u were here... !!

She lived in a state of constant pain. Nothing done or seen or touch does not remind her of her beloved.


Nights meant for those quiet moments..... talking..... laughing...... dreaming...... loving....  are now megaphones for her pain..... amplifying back so that it slams her into submission. There were no holiday’s..... there were no anniversaries..... no birthdays...... lest she counted the anniversary of her beloved’s death. She started counting the days since he left her. Her world was never right after he left her.... like a shattered glass it was destroyed to thousand pieces.... she tried to glue it together... and it did work.... but....... only for a short time. Gradually she understood dat a broken piece will always be broken... and evn if itz mended it wont look the same...!

Her life was never a fantasy. It constantly had it ups and downs... smiles and wales. But wen he came along, she turned every tears into smiles.... and every frown into a grin. She loved every bit of him.... his craziness....anger....laughter....beliefs....looks....attitude.....and wat not.! 

She got the wind of those life ending words.... with grief .... with shock. But she quickly composed herself... coz she never believed... there was noway she could make sure wat happened..... not ever in her life she felt dat lonely. Everyone she knew who was glad to help was helpless.... and those who could din...!! That was the night she learned to silence her tearz.... to hide her agony... and to act normal, in-spite of the burning sensation in her heart. The night wen she loathed the world around her... hated herself for being der.... for being soo damn helpless...!! 

She have been having a very hard time, comes in waves and some of them knocked her over. She lays in bed crying gasping for air as she prayed to be with him..... prayed for a miracle...... prayed that everything was jst a horrible dream...... nd not to wake up alone. But, she woke up, she have never been so sad to wake up in her life. But she did. 

In the beginning, she had a numbness that allowed her to exist. Then her memory turned into images like an old silent movie, flickers of images but no detail. Now.. Now she remembered details. It was like seeing fire, being burned before, knowing it will hurt, and sticking your hand in anyway. In her mind she inspected his face, his look, what did she miss, what could she have done to save him. Nothing. Absolutely nothing. But the thought of not having him near her...... kills her each moment. 


Badly wish you were here ... !!!!!

1st bthday in heavn...!!!!!!!

It's your first birthday in Heaven

I know you're happy there

It just doesn't seem possible

Time has gone by so fast.

You're surrounded by those loved ones

Who left you so long ago

And you're watching over those you left

Smiling down from above.

It's your first birthday in Heaven

It doesn't feel right that this is so.

You should be here with your friends and family

Who all miss you as we do

Time stands still when realization hits

You've gone on to a better place

You're healthy and happy again...

But you're presence on Earth can never be replaced

It's your first birthday in Heaven

The first of many more yet to come

And though you're gone in body

Your spirit will forever live on.

FrOzEn Up!!!!!!

!!  SUNDAY   !!

............ Wow ...........She was full of smiles..... :) :) ........

Her favorite day and today there's something more to it.. She’s going to meet him after some long months and a never ending week... ufff!! At last!!! He made her miss him loads.

She was smiling to herself even during the morning mass.. Wanted time to fly now but it should drag when they are together... Yea she knew she was selfish. But who cares.

She was so deeply, madly in love with him that she really wished she could stop time when she was with him, so she could stay with him forever.

My phone started humming breaking the thread of my day dreams. Him!

H:  'm coming.

S:  Meet you at our old place   (All smiles)

Got ready... and was out within seconds. When was nearing the destination laddus were blasting in her mind… But why? She was not seeing him for the first time ... hmm… but felt so…

So many thoughts flashed through ...right from their first meeting... first proper date... falling in love... talks... Craziness and everything.

She never knew why she loved him? Never know why she felt so incomplete without him. He always made her world better... Always make her feel so special that she just glowed!!

Now enough of day dreaming… Hey!

Where was he? Late... hmm may be those stupid traffic.. Or last minute friends.... hmm... wait ......waiting......and she would wait till then end for him. She thought.

5... 10... 20... 30... 45minz!!! Still no sign of him...

Someone attended his mobile when she called, and said something and all which didn’t make any sense at all and only certain words striked her like lightning... Car... Accident... Hospital...!!

That was the instant she realized that smiles do vanish that fast... Don’t even know where her tears went. Helpless... Fearsome... her heart never beated so fast... She was shivering.... nothing made sense... became totally function less!!

She didn't knew what to do, or how to know what happened. Some how called up her friend and told him to enquire what’s happening.

The time she prayed, hoped everything was all right.

But.... NO... it was not...!

She mobile beeped again. She heard what her friend on the other end of the line was saying but couldn’t really resurface from the depth of the news. Prayed that it was just a nightmare that when she open her eyes again she could realize that it was just a dream and it dint happen to him.

Prayed that at least the clock could run back... the time could turn back... but it didn’t.. she hoped to wake up from her sleep... Alas! It was indeed a bad dream but which turned out to b a REALITY!!

A brutal ... A life changing ...  A killing Reality!!

Something which changed everything for her...

It was like somebody ran an ice dagger through her heart.

Don’t know how got back to her hideout.. Don’t know how I survived in dos four walls.. Never wanted that night to set... never wanted the sun rays to shine ever again... Because along with d rays she would lose him... she was going to see him again... the one which got postponed today because of the unexpected appointment with the one above us.

Going to see him, her birthday partner who left her all alone even without a word... to his place where she wanted to step-in with him... to see his people... whom she wanted to be a part of... but now.... with a hope of seeing that smile he promised her... who made her smile for his craziness... for his love... who made her sad... who made her cry... who made her feel too special... who said "I trust you more than I love you"... who could smile just to see her smile... who made her miss him too much even when he was so near.... who tolerated her only because it was just her ... and ... now who made her FREEZE with his forever vanishing act !!!!!!

In a day all her dreams, wishes, happiness, smiles, hopes.....everything was buried..... With him…