If someone asks me this question my spontaneous reply would be, “Me? Noway! I’m not afraid of anything.” … But in actual there are lot of things which make me back out of things I want to do, or want to go for. For instance been afraid to say No to people I love. I can’t do that. How much I try, hoe stubborn I may turn to be… at the end I just give up. There are times I have thought, “If only I was a bit more rebel in some situations, I would have moved on with saying a No.” But sometimes saying that two letter words requires so much of courage and strong hearted, which I certainly lack. Maybe as I age up, might gain this too. Fingers crossed!
I am afraid to face certain demons of my life. Which if once faced courageously, would leave me forever. I know that very well, but the fear factor is so high that I ignore the good side of getting those demons out of life. I haven’t yet reached that part of life, where I could say at certain situations, “Let anything happen, I don’t care.”
When these two phobias of mine leaves me, or when I grow up to achieve these qualities life would be much more easier. But life doesn't come with a manual or an instructional video. We are bound to find the best ways to make life happen for us. And I believe, all these are part of that. And I’m still trying to find out the best way to tackle life. And once I do that, I’ll be kicking all these fears of mine goodbye forever.
This is part of the Blog Carnival that's been kicked off in Corinne's blog, Everyday Gyaan.