Tuesday, August 12, 2014

Free Write ...

One thing I enjoy most is writing, even when I am not too good in that and also reading. But the so called writers/readers block has once again caught me tight around the neck, nearly choking me and making it impossible to breathe. Is this actually the so called writer’s block or the uneasiness life gives you and you tend to shift that to things you love? I can’t say, I lack topics to write or books to read. But I lack the energy to think, type and make it into a post or pick a book, sit down and actually read it. If only there was a technique to transfer all those thoughts that’s whirling in your mind to organized words… awe… that’s too much to ask for... I know. But one can surely wish, na?

Today morning the news that greeted me was the death of the renowned Hollywood actor Robin Williams. Jumanji was one of the earliest movies I remember watching and recommending to many of my friends. He made others laugh with his movies but he himself was a victim of depression. How ironic! Is life always like this, that it’s not the truth that we see with our eyes but deep down there’s so much of hidden truths waiting for us to ponder down? Who could have guessed he was suffering from depression and one day it would kill him, but the truth it did.


Why are we so conscious about displaying our fears and sorrows? Is it because that’s how the world wants to see us, just the happy smiling faces? Is it because the sadness can make the world cringe their noses that we tend to mask it with a smile? No, I am not questioning anyone. This is just a query to self. No matter what, it is so hard for me to admit that I’m upset/sad, even with people who are non judgmental. Am I trying to be otherwise now? Nope. I did give it a try once or twice but it just made me bitter. So I decided to leave it as such.


Before you seek the light all around you, seek that sunshine within you. That will make you feel warm, loved and so special. And every day of your life can be a miracle. A very beautiful miracle.



P.S. Sorry for been so disoriented. Thought of writing something else, but ended up with this. Do bare with me, please.  




24 comments :

  1. So glad to see you write again. You write so well. Please don't let the 'block' actually block you. Jumanji is one of my favorite movies too. It's indeed ironical that a person who made the whole world laugh was battling with depression :( I hope he is in a better place now.

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    1. Thank you so much Aathira. Hope I could actually kick this block in its gear. :)

      And yeah... he'll be definitely in a good place... as he made many of us smile...

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  2. This is really a nice write up and we fully agree with the views of the author. Keep it up.

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  3. Your cents are worth a much of $$$$ Sheethal

    Keep it coming :)

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  4. So very heartbroken about Robin Williams. What a sad thing. :(

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  5. Yes it isn't easy for many people to reveal to others their sadness, depression and deeper fears. But perhaps we don't need to reveal all of that to everyone, to the whole world out there. What we need are a few, maybe just one or two people who are really close to us, whom we can trust completely, who understand us fully...they are the ones who can bring us out of our fears, sorrows and anxieties simply by being who they are and in our lives. Just something that popped up in my head as I read your freewrite. And yes I also share some of what you say in the beginning about lacking the energy to write :)

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    1. Yes, completely agree with you. We had atleast one person with whom we can be ourselves without worrying about been judged or looked down.

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  6. You are making great progress, Just keep an open mind while writing. Even 15 words can make a post.
    I too hope Robin is in a better place now.
    Keep writing

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    1. I hope I could write often too... thanks Indrepreet :)

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  7. I know what you mean...You know I find it hard to express myself or what I feel or I actually feel people don't understand me and then it upsets me...And I really loved this free write...Keep going :)

    Random Thoughts Naba - Sleeping Quirks...

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  8. I'm glad you did this free write! It is very freeing, isn't it, to pen your thoughts down without worrying about form etc!

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  9. That's exactly what you mean by free write, right? To be disoriented? :) I loved your line of thoughts!

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  10. Write baby write. You are good at it. And yes we should always know our inner sunshine :)

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  11. This is good ! believe me .. The only movie i watched of him was Dead Poet Society !

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  12. Ahh don't be sorry, this is your blog, you can be disoriented, crazy or sensible as you please :)
    the demise of Robin Williams was indeed tragic. I watched Jumanji again that day.

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  13. I came back to my blog yesterday after like 2 months. I was away once for nearly 8 months. I think it is better to write less but good stuff than to write more but not-enjoyable stuff. If you can't enjoy it, or have to make yourself write things, then it is better to do something else.

    The one thing about Robin's death that makes me happy is that mental health issues are now a more mainstream topic.

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