Craving for a Change.

She was someone who took life as it comes. Thou life was not the Best it was Beautiful. Obviously, it had its ups and downs but it didn't stop her from been happy. She was a stubborn, pampered n rotten, childish and a happy girl. But during the journey of life she lost a close person of hers to death. It hit her. It hit her BIG time. It made her fall from the top of the world to the black hole deep down from where seeing any ray of light was just impossible.  Even now at times she just blankness out of reality. It made her look at life in a new way... in a horrible way. Made her drift away from human, God and even herself. She was angry at God.  At everything and anything.

There were countless of sleepless nights and also in-numerous nights when she used to cry herself to sleep. She knew that what happened cannot be erased and she had to live with it till the end. But knowing is something different from living it.

As time passed she learned to live with the loss... but by that time she had changed... it was as if all the positive energy had just drained out of her.

But that one incident made her strong.

Now moving aside all the negatives she decided to be her old self. It might take time... but trying is more worthy than letting go.

Student to Professional.

At last!!!

I am writing about my first job. Congrats to me.  J

I joined a firm in Middle East which is basically Turkish, where I am the youngest and the one of the two Indians. Good people, Good working environment. And am I satisfied with work??  Will comment about that in next three months.

 But still am happy about the feeling of getting up in the morning and going off to WORK!!

OUR day !!!

JUNE 16!!! Yesterday it's been 23 years since i stepped on this earth.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME !!!!

Four years back i met someone unexpectedly who shares the same birthday with me. We became close and promised each other to celebrate not just the b'thdays but the future together. But we couldn't make it that year as we were on two different countries of the same continent. But we made it up by wishing each other @ 12 on dot. But two months after that he just vanished to a place beyond my reach... a place from where noone came back ever... a place to where no one can go until he's called.

This is the 3rd June after he went. Every day, every hour n every sec i wish to be waken up from a dream to your voice... but that still remains as a dream itself.

But i still celebrate every day with you itself... my mornings... my happiness... smiles... tears... everything !!! So this birthday is also celebrated with you.... every sec.

Many Many happy returns of OUR special day.

U were missed sooo very much.... and no words can describe that.




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The clock knocked me down to reality. Waking me up from my dreams and reminding me that now I’m in reality. Reality where am I now. 


A place of vaccum … A place where I do all my pretendences… A place of perfection… A place where I dread to be…  A place where I changed myself totally… but from where am not able to sneak out from…

Here I miss everything and everyone… it makes me question my very existence… I wanna travel the road less travelled… but here I’m forced to choose the other way… the safe secure world.

When everything and everyone is missed… it starts right from the first person to the last and all the moments spend with everyone…  

Woman, U'r Special.

A simple Women’s Day wish among many forwards made me Smile and also made my day. The person remembered and thought of sending a message is what made the difference.

As one said…. ‘Small Small things can make us happy. ‘

And that’s what happened today.

Happy Women’s Day to all awesum Ladies. We make this world a better place to live in.

J

Always the Same.

It’s always been so hard when there is a goodbye.

There is always a tear in the eyes and in the heart when we lose someone we love or a close friend or someone in the family...it hurts and gets a deep pain inside us from missing them... but at the same time we keep trying to have a hope that this person will come back again in our life...

Tears and pain can never kill the hope, when we have big faith in this hope and in this love that is inside us ...sometime we pray and other time we sit watch them from far away and other times we might just go and talk to them and put everything behind to build new start...but some others they would try to forget and to go over what they had ...but I keep wondering if we can ever go over something that have  become a big part of us ...even if they wasn't meant to  live with us..... But still they will always live inside us... 

Always...!!!!!!!!!

Disappointed.

She trusted him. Trusted him even when she knew he was full of lies. Tried to find something good in him.
Even when found, it were all wrapped up beautifully with lies.

Women are born not only with beauty, but with brains too. We do recognize fraudsters and liars but we choose to give them a chance to alter. But when they still prefer begin in their own self, nothing can be done. Their choice, their life. Having a good profile in the society doesn't mean he is a Gentleman. That is something obtained from a thoughtful heart and a good mind.

Why do people play with others' trust? Go get a life yaar, instead of making yourself more filthy. Be an example to your kid or one day u'r gonna regret for all this. What we do to others will eventually come back to us... be it good or bad. That's my belief. 

When you screw up others happiness be prepared to have your happiness also screwed. Tit for Tat. That's God's slogan now a days.


Still


God bless You always coz you were trusted....... more than once.